Gong Xi Fa Cai !!!!!!!

GONG XI... GONG XI....

May all the luck comes to me...... May all the monies come into my bank accounts...... May my health always in good condition...... May my dayssss always happy happy...... and may all the one I love have what they wanted.... :)

And... HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!! MUAKSSSSSSSSSSSS

Anniversary......

It's da 2nd year Anniversary of my blog!

Time flies.... been two years since I start talking nonsense here, a place for me to release my feelings, speak out my opinion... with no one against me... :P

Chinese New Year is just around the corner... my little sister is coming home... my best friend is coming back... Happy Happy.... :) Wish that my year will be as good as those MASTERS said... Been through so many bad years.. bad experience.. bad things.. I do need a new change, new luck and new life.

My best friend- Lisa is pregnant. I'm so happy for her! The first thing I told her after she told me the new is... I WAN TO BE UR BABY'S GOD MOTHER!!! :P I'm so excited when I heard that... Can't wait to see her BABY... or my GOD DAUGHTER/ SON... Anyway, I prefer Daughter lahhh... can dress her up pretty pretty... can do her hair nice nice.. can dress her like an angel, princess... AAwwwww...so LOVELY... YEAHHHH...the baby will due on September..same month as me... :) A piggy. I'm so excited for her. She is happy and taking good care of herself for her first baby... :) I can see happiness in her eyes.. Such a joyful little woman...

I got 2 more bombs to go... 10th March and 18th March... total bombs as per today, 10. Scary... everyone getting married... and my mom being more and more worry... and my pressure will be more heavier. Sucksss.

Wish me Happy Valentine's Day... Wish me Happy Chinese New Year!! Wish me luck for the coming YEARSSSSSS.... I need good luck!!!!

Arguement.....

Sorry, mom. I don't mean to have a fight with you. But I'm really frustrated whenever you urge me to marry. I really don't mean it. I'm sorry.

I understand that every mama also will feel worry on their kids if they are still not yet marry when they reached the "age of marry". It's not that I do not want to marry, have someone share my life, have someone who loves me, have someone who really care of me. But, we need 2 person to get marry. Nothing can be done if only one party wanted to marry or if the person is single.

I know that you are worrying on me, worrying that I will be too old to carry a baby... worrying that I will waste my time wondering around... worrying that I do not know what I'm doing. Mom, it takes two hands to clap. What can I do if no one wanted to marry me??? It's not that I do not want to marry. Men have changed.. Having a "serious" relationship with you doesn't means they have to marry you. Fucking you doesn't means he has to spend his life with you.

This is not what I think, but it's what I see. We will vision beautiful marriage when we are so in love, but do THE MAN really want to go into marriage with you?? My ex and I used to talk about our wedding... looks what I got then? Betrayal. That's what I got. Then, I thought I saw my future with SOMEONE, then came the words.. "NOT READY". No one really appreciate what you did. No one really care nowadays.

I'm not as lucky as my girl friends.. they found their love, who wanted to spend his life with her. I'm bad luck in love.. in relationship. Mom, you should know well what I have went through. That's not what I want... You thought I do not want a happy ending?? Or you think I enjoy the days of crying whenever a relationship ended??

Mom, not that I wanted to waste my time, not that I do not want to get marry... But, it's not in my control.

I know that I'm getting older... I know that you do worry on me. Sorry... I don't mean to argue with you.