My Xmas Gift......

:) I got few xmas gifts from my friends and my honey.

Honey- He got me da FLIP FLAP!!! Which I have been looking up n down for it. Been eyed on it when I first saw it in the Jaya Jusco. That time, was hoping my ex get it for me, but he claimed that's too expensive for a toy! Disappointed... I walked away with sad mood. My honey knew that I like this very much and been looking up and down for it. I never expect that I will got this from him. I was planning to get it when I got my bonus. :) Tadahhhhh...my honey is so sweet and he got me this toy that I fancy always!! Muakss... Thanks Honey!! I really like it and it means alot.

Nic- This best friend of mine... send me a xmas gift from Australia. Such a suprise when I saw a big box lying on my table with few Australia stamps on it. I knew it's from Nic. But I do not know what's that. Photomosaics Puzzle. Such a challenging puzzle. :P I like it, it's cute!! :) Thanks.. Nic!!!

Ms. E- I bought her a small mobile phone accessories. Told her not to get me anything as I do not need anything. But, there is a gift on my office table this morning. It's a gift from her. A very cute and funny glass. There has 2 cows, cow A said "Yours is mine, OK??? Mine is always mine!!!" cow B said.."oOOoooHhHHhH....." hahahahaha... then the other site of the glass... written... GOOD FRIEND, NEVER BE CALCULATIVE. Very cute. Lovely.

I also got myself few xmas gifts... hahahaa...ya.. FEW!

1. Mobile phone accessory... which is almost the same with what I gave to Ms. E
2. Shirt from MNG... Sales is ON!!! irresistable. My honey already warned me not to shopping
too much. :P

Actually, wanted to get myself the STARY watch from SWATCH... But it cost around Rm200.00. Better save some money for my coming Bangkok Trip and my new house. Ya, I'm going to Bangkok again, with my honey :) This trip will be his and my birthday trip. Good idea eh!! :) Can't wait!!

Deeply in holiday mood... everyone being so. But still, have to work like a dog. Anyway, hope everything will be better after this Year End Closing shit!!! Hate it... but still have to take it!! Life... always sux but beautiful.

Spend a very good night with my honey last night. We did not do anything gila.. we did not go to anywhere that is very beautiful.. we did not have any wonderful food.. but everything is just so beautiful with him around. Having him around is already the best thing for me, even though just sitting at home and watching some boring series.

Life is always beautiful... stresss... challenging... unpredictable... Still, we are here to love and to be love.... :)

I love everyone around me. I love my family, I love my friends, I love my colleagues, I love my honey!!

King Kong.......

King Kong..... heart touching movie. At first, I thought it was boring... then come to funny... as King Kong suddenly turned into Jurassic Park... then, it became so romantic, so touching. It is a very good movie that last for 3 hours. Amazing, breath taking and funny. Hahahaha... King Kong is so MAN!!!! He has all the man's ego. Hahahahaha.... He even knows KUNG FU!! He can fight so beautiful. He is muscular, tall, dark, brave, protective, romantic, and kiddy... These are what we wished our man has. Always fight for us, stand by us, understand our feelings, nothing is important but us, have fun with us, bring us some romantic moments.... Aaawww... this King Kong is so humanized. I bet that every lady in da cinema will wish that the man beside her has all the characteristics.

Very touching movie.. I almost cry. :P

Worth for it.... really a very nice movie. I remember I watched King Kong once when I was very young. I still remember King Kong holding the girl in his palm and climbing up to the tower.. I wondering why the King Kong always want the girl. I think I know the reason after tonight.

Now, the movie came to us again, with more interesting storyline. Support King Kong!! :)
He is so..... MAN!!!

Dinner......

22 Dec'05- Da first time my honey stepped into my house. Having dinner at my house on this meaningful festival for Chinese.

Nothing much about this dinner, but I'm very glad that he feel comfortable with my family. I'm glad that he came over for the dinner. We spend our homely moments on watching TV together and played with the kids. It's great to have him hugging me while watching TV. It's great to rest at home with him around. I hope he did enjoy himself.

I gave him da christmas gift. He gave me a kiss. But when he wanna kiss on my cheek, he hit my glasses. And I was trying to adjust back my glasses while his lips pressed on my cheek and lips. Was shocked. But feel sweet. :)

One thing that I can't deny is.... I'm falling very deeply. I started to miss him just right after he drove away from my house. Terrible!!!!

Christmas is coming!!!! :) I bought Ms. E a small gift, just as an appreciation for her caring heart. CH is very sweet, he bought every girl in da gang a flower. Put on our table while we are not around. Such a lovely guy.

I'm deeply in holiday mood!!!! But so many things to rush on work. Die laahhh....

Little Man...... 2

Tonight, went out with my honey for late dinner and coffee @ Plaza Mont Kiara. We had our good time after few days that we didn't see each other. I love his companion alots. When we were walking towards his car and heading home, my little man dropped off from my mobile phone. I felt something dropped off but I was too careless to noticed that the Little Man is missing that time. I thought I'm over sensitive or what. So, I ignored it and walked to da car and....go home!!!

I realised that my little man lost once I put my mobile phone on the table. Immediately I sms him about it and he told me that it's not in his car. I called him and he offered to come back and we go back to the place and search for it. I feel so touched because I never expect him to do so. I though to call him and tell him that I'm going back there to search. I feel very touched. He made a big U turn back... just to take me to search for this small little mobile phone accessory.

When we reached the walking path we walked along, he was searching along the drain and I was searching along the walking path. Ha!! I found it lying on the site of the drain but not in the drain. I'm lucky!! I'm lucky that it is still in one good piece and no one took it away from me. I'm lucky that I have him who willing to turn back just for such a small issue! I appreciated it very much.

I'm so worry on the little man is not because it is a gift from Nic, OK, partly it is because it's a gift from Nic. But it's mainly because I like it very much. And now, the Little Man means more than anything to me. More than anything....

Thanks, Honey. I appreciated it very much. It's only a small item and you willing to make it for me. Muakssss..... I feel so happy not because that I found the Little Man [partly of course], but because of what you did to me.

P.S I LOVE YOU.

Annual Dinner

16th Dec 2005- My company's Annual Dinner. Located @ Holiday Inn, Glenmarie. The interior design for this hotel is unique. It's more towards Thai's style than our local style.

We left office by 5pm, to one of our colleague's house for cleaning up ourselves. There are 3 of us going to the mentioned colleague's house at Subang. We went to bath one by one and dressep up. Then, we started to make up abit, put some colors on our faces. After one and a half an hour, TADAHHH!!! we are done. When we walked down to the living hall, CH was sitting there waiting for us [He has been waiting for one and a half hour actually... Hahahhahaa..] He claimed..."It's amazing what girls can do in the one and a half hour...." Ok, time to make the move... we heading to the hotel... CH dropped us down at the lobby and he went to park his car. Such a caring guy. So, we waited for him at the lobby.

We are on time and there has few table are already filled by our colleagues. We choosed the best view table and settle down. We started to take photos like mad people. But, we are lucky that we are not the only mad people around the ballroom. Hahahahaha.... So, due to the lack of MALE SPECIES in our company. CH is da only guy at our table. James unable to attend this dinner as he flew for his HONEYMOON!!!! But, even he is da only GUY for our table... He still wanted me to serve him food.. but he did serve me too... And he has to represented our table whenever there need our participation. Hahahaha..poor thing. CH keep complaining to me that he looks like a pimp as got a table of girls surrounding him. Hahahaha... actually, he looks gay as James said. :P But definately he is not a GAY. We all start bullying him and said that we should declare him as our SISTER!! Ya, sister!! he is able to fulfil this role. Hahahahahha.....

The food is not so good beside the Fried Rice. The whole dinner time is kinda boring beside the time when there is a lady to teach us... LATINO! We all went out for the LATINO LESSON, standing infront of the stage, following the LATINO steps with the crowd. Kinda funny, but embrassing when you unable to follow at all. Somemore, we have to shake our bumm bumm... hahahhaha.. I can't stop laughing.

After that, CH said that he wanted to introduce a GOOD LOOKING GUY to all of us. So, we all went to Sunway Pyramid. At first, we planned to go for clubbing, but there they change their mind for a drink at the Magician Restaurant located @ Sunway Pyramid. Very interesting restaurant, the Magician will come to your table and show you magic. Very very amazing!!! The magician keep coming to our table and show us magic. What to do, we got too many pretty girls here. I love this restaurant! Ms. E ordered a drinks named- FIRST LOVE and myself ordered - P.S I LOVE YOU. So lovely... so romantic!!! Kakakakakaka.....

Ha!! there come the VERY GOOD LOOKING GUY. Ya, I can't deny that he is good looking and tall. But, not my style. Too good looking as CH. We all pushing him to Ms. C as she is deperately to have a bf. But she said that HE is too good looking for her... Hahahaha...poor thing.. no one want to take the GOOD LOOKING GUY.

We left the restaurant around 130am. And I'm home around 2++am. Exhausted. Went to bath and sleep directly. Anyway, beside the boring programme.. the night was great!!! :) It's great because I got bunch of funny and nice colleagues.

I'm very glad to know you all! :)

A Lonely Christmas......

I already foresee that I will have a lonely Christmas this year. Don't know why I feel so, but my 6th sense told me that. And it's proven that my 6th sense is kinda accurate. Hahahahaha... I will have a lonely Christmas without him around me.

I did not plan anything for myself and never think on it. Since it's confirmed that I will be alone for this coming Christmas, I better get some plans for myself. If not, I will feel lonely and sad at home then.

Jeannie & David planning to go to Penang and Hadyai within the 3 days. I'm not interested as I do feel that is kinda rush for such trip. Moreover, they are going with another couple. Arghhh... Don't want lah. If not mistaken, Kenneth is going to Penang too. He will be there to look for his best guy friend. Sighh.... It's impossible for me to tag along. Then, Ms. E is going to PD and stay overnight with her friends. I do not know them... so, again... not so fun to go there even Ms. E did invited me. Then, my other friends got their own plan, all left me out.. Mr. CH is a christian, sure won't be free lah.... Ms. C, Ms. N all got plans, Ms. OY going to Seremban to meet up her bf... Ms. HH already got her bf to accompany her... I feel so.. sighhhh...

All thought that I will have someone to spend this lovely occation with me. But no one know that I will be alone for this Christmas. Sound sad..... Maybe I should blame on my activeness on meeting up with friends. So, everyone thought that I will never be alone on this lovely occation.
Think that, I can't escape from being alone in this White Christmas- 2005.

I used to spend my Christmas with someone, either go for a small party, friends gathering or a romantic dinner. After we broke off, I spend my Christmas with my friends, Jeannie and David or my sister. But, my sister is not in KL and Jeannie and David already got plan... I think, I will be alone for this Christmas. Arghh...already feel down when think on it.

I'm a person who can feel loneliness easily..... especially on special occations. I can be a very cheerful person always, but not when I'm lonely on special occations. Eeeemmmmm.... I better ask around then.. if not, I will be left out... Poor thing. Maybe I should plan for me New Year eve as well.

I have to handle my loneliness well since I love him.

I still have to be alone even I got him.

But.... nevermind lahhhh...

White Christmas.......

"White Christmas" is the Christmas song that I love most... and now, Mid Valley is having their White Christmas there... So beautiful.... I love it so much.... I can't take my eyes off from it...

我好想他.........

我觉得非常失落。是他太保守于表达自己还是我要求太多？总是感觉不到他对我的热情，他对我的思念。他也不太热衷于和我见面，与我在一起。

是我要求太高吗？一个星期只见一两次面，对于一对刚开始拍拖的恋人来说，合理吗？我总是非常想念他，好想见他，好想亲近他，好想天天与他在一起。但是，对他而言，这好像是不太合逻辑。不是说我没有给他私人时间，或没有给他时间陪伴家人。我只不过想他在周末陪伴我，很过分吗？

对于我的失落，他感受的到，但是他依旧自我。我告诉他我想见他，他告诉我他要与他妈去他姐家过夜。好啊！！我会自己找节目。我有一堆朋友。我不会闷死在家。他说今晚我们出去，我说我没有空。他说，下个星期去‘依家’，我说我会很忙于工作。月头了，我真的会非常忙碌。我不是故意说来激怒他。星期一忙到星期三，星期四有宴会。星期五，好像有什么东西做，但是又不记得。周末？他又会告诉我说他想休息于家中，然后又不知会去那里。

一肚子的闷气，不知道要向谁申诉。

我好想他，但是他不想见我。

我。。。

我。。。

非常敏感的女人。
胡思乱想的女人。
不知所谓的女人。
一塌糊涂的女人。
心乱如麻的女人。
不自由主的女人。
感情丰富的女人。
年纪不小的女人。
无企图心的女人。
异常专一的女人。
喜爱逛街的女人。
讨厌沉闷的女人。
不甘寂寞的女人。
喜欢咖啡的女人。
享受生活的女人。
讨人喜欢的女人。
开朗可爱的女人。
笑容满脸的女人。
不爱工作的女人。
朋友一堆的女人。
珍惜朋友的女人。
非常依赖的女人。
容易伤感的女人。
泪线发达的女人。

总之来说，我还是一个可爱的女人。无论他对我的爱有没有像我般的浓厚。我依旧是我。我管不着。他说他想我。如果想我，为何不打电话给我？为何不见面？为何可以任由我自由的飞？

如果有一天，我能展翅高飞
那是因为你的爱
如果有一天，我不想再飞翔于高空
那是因为我想在你怀中栖息
如果有一天，我不能飞翔如以往
那是因为你的爱已不再伴我傲翔了


如果有一天，我不再在乎你给我的讯息。。。那是因为你对我来说已不重要了。

无题

今天的我，实在太寂寞。与同事们去喝咖啡。两个寂寞的女人，一个无聊的男人。天南地北的谈天说地。我们聊自由恋爱，内在美，男人心，女人心，外在的吸引力。。。。还有寂寞的心。两性的话题永远不过时。我们陪伴着对方，消磨着多余的精力与时间。话题和笑声不间断。一个不错的咖啡时光。

是我想太多了吗？还是他独行惯了？当我非常想他陪伴我，他却告诉我说他想在家休息。我说，好啊，那么你在家休息吧。我也想阔达一些，我尝试去习惯他的独行。但是，我总是觉得是我在演独角戏。如果，有一段日子，我不约会他，他会开口约我吗？？我想不会吧。。。他应该乐得清静。怎么说，我也是个女的，我也想享受一下被宠爱的感觉。一种被重视的虚荣。

两个刚开始谈恋爱的人，不是应该朝思暮想的吗？？为什么我的他却是不见也无所谓？他的独行，令我不自由主的沮丧。是我想太多了吗？快要十一点了，没有电话，没有短讯。。。什么也没有。他一点也不想我吗？一点也不想知道我去了那里吗？一点也不在乎吗？是我想太多了吗？是我想太多了吗？

我没有安全感，我没有方向感。他爱我吗？？我不知道。。。我只知道我爱他。。我好在乎他。我在乎他的喜怒哀乐。。我在乎他的感受，我在乎他对我的看法。。我在乎他对我的态度。。。我全都在乎。但是，他在乎我吗？？我常常告诉自己不要问太多，因为他会感觉我在压逼他。于是，我什么都不问，尤其是他对我的感情。他从未告诉我他爱我与否。他从未告诉我他对我的感觉。行动，真的能代表一切吗？？如果行动真的能代表一切，那么，他那不热切的想念是否代表他不太爱我呢？？那么，为什么开始呢？？

是我想太多了吗？是我想太多了吗？是我想太多了吗？

还是没有短讯，没有电话。。。。什么也没有。我。。。好伤感。我应该给多一点时间大家吗？？是他还未适应吗？？还是我的要求太高？？我想，我不会要求太高吧。适当的关心，关怀，见面。。。没有什么不妥吧。

我好想你，但是你想我吗？？？？？为什么我感觉不到你对我的想念？

Do I really care?????

No, I do not care about that.

Man... Complicated human being.

This Kuantan Man. Know him years ago. Whenever he came to KL for business trip, his calls will come to me too. Sometimes, I will meet up with him and sometimes I won't. But, it has been a long long time that we lost touch. He always expected me to meet up with him regardless what time he call me... It's just because.. he is in love with me.

Never been care on his admire. He is so confidence that I will in love with him. So, after a long time of lost touch, he contacted me and told me that he will be transfer to KL by his company. And he told me, "So, there has no obtracle between us anymore." I was like.... HA???? PARDON ME???? He asked "so, will you give me a chance to get you back again?" I was like... HA??!?!!??!?!?!?!!??!?!?!!? I told him, "No, I got bf already." He said, "I know that if I'm really go after you with 100% effort, you will leave him for me." I said, "No, I won't. I only care of him now but no others included you." Then he still gila gila over there.... GOSH!!!!!

So, I just told him to get lost lah!!!! Such a crazy man!!!!