Saturday, May 28, 2005

New bloodss.....

I met up with 2 new net friends within a week. Let me introduce them abit...

1. Kiat - a TV Commercial Producer. Working in Advertising line. Tall, medium size, friendly,
nice but abit hamsap, not bad looking lah, tidy, clean, got 2 dimples beside his lips, when
he smile, he seems cute.... hahahaah.. 2 yrs younger than me. We can chat well, and got
lots of topic to chat on. I think I did give him such a good impression as well as he willing
to come out for yam cha again or asking me when free to meet up again. But of
course, this is only as a friends invitation. Staying in OUG. Always work late.

2. Lawrence - an owner of the Networking Engineering Company. Meet up with him last night at
Mont Kiara Coffee Bean after so many nights of chatting. He is as cute as in the
photo. Fair, Tall, Chubby, Clean, got sense of humour, good in communication,
interested in me very much, ambition, hardworking, considerate person. He gave
me such a good impression as well. One year older than me, a rabbit. Staying in
OUG as Kiat. Seems that his family background is not bad, kind juicy family. He
driving a BMW, old version but still a BMW. Might meeting up with him again
tonight. Won't reject him if he confess, not because of what but I do feel good
when I'm with him even we only met once. Been chatting with him almost
everynight after we met in IRC. Let everything depends on FATE ya. Nothing I
can do but this. Wish me luck!

Friday, May 20, 2005

I had a dreammm....

I had a dream last night, I dreamed of Eugene. I dreamed that I requesting for pack up with him, he rejected me. He said, I love you still, but I can't accept your style of loving a person. I were so sad, I were crying, I were running away from his car. He asked me to give him one more year to settle this. I said, I don't want to wait anymore, It's been 2 years and I'm still waiting you, loving you. He insist to go back to me. I'm really sad, very sad. I cried out loud, I feel like dying. He did come and look for me when I ran out from his car, but it means nothing. I were on a bridge, I saw the wide river, I felt like jumping into it, but I did not do so.

It was a sad sad dream. I hate to have such dream. I wondering why I had such dream. sighh....

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Sorrow Night.....

Been back from Bangkok trip last nite 230am. Kenneth is the lovely one who pick me up frm KLIA. Appreciate his kindness to this lonely lil lady. He is a lovely man when he never JAT anyone or showing his kiddy attitude. Talk to him alots in da car while we are on the way back to my home. He is actually in sleepy mode but he still making his effort to keep himself awake and send me home safety.. such a nice & lovely friend I have. Bangkok is a wonderful place, big city, crowded, busy, polluted.. :P Didn't buy much from our shopping, chatuchak is the most amazing market that I ever been. So big, crowded, warm, air-less, all variety and typical market environment... hahahhaa... I only able to covered a small area of it... lack of time to do so. I will be back for chatuchak! No doubt on it! Let me save more bullets 1st... :)

Been chatting da whole night tonight, been chatting about relationship with this guy names SHAWN from Kelantan. He touched on my scar, and it's bleeding now. Again, my tears dropped because of Eugene. I do not know why I'm still missing him, why I'm still waiting for his return, why my heart is still being so pain when mentioned about him... please... anyone can tell me? anyone can help me?? anyone can cure me? No one, right? I know, I know it well... no one can help me, no one can cure me.. beside myself. No matter how I pretend that I'm having happy life now, I know it well that I still missing Eugene badly. I know that I still wishing to see him one day. I know that I still wishing a day that he will return to me. I'm stupid, fucking stupid! I'm still loving someone who no longer love me, no longer care of me.

I need a man that love me without motive.. anyone??

Monday, May 09, 2005

Love Life???

As you know, I have been always a BIG LAMP POST for Jeannie & David. Tonight, we went for our coffee and dinner again, I pay Rebecca a visit at her lil stall while Jeannie & David went to buy some breads.. When I'm chatting with Rebecca, David came over and pass me his bag without saying a word. And of coz I take it from him. Then, Rebecca asked, "new bf?????" hahahaha.... I laff out loud, and say..."HE IS SOMEONE's HUBBY eh!!!!"

While we walking towards to SUSHI KING for our dinner, 3 of us were chatting and Jeannie is holding on David's arm and I'm holding on Jeannie's arm.. we walk in 3... kinda funny. When reached to da escalator, David said "we are reaching da escalator" So I have to leave and walk behind, Jeannie said "sorry that I have to give up on u" I said "I understand, I will get my another half! "

I think it's the time that I have to get myself a steady relationship, even that both of them don mind that I be their LAMP POST always. Am I too choosy?? too fussy??? I'm not sure about myself. But I'm still OK with my life, beside my CAREER... I'm happy with it. Maybe, sometimes I will feel abit lonely or need someone's companion, But... it's only SOMETIMES...

eemmm..... Should I?????? Shall I??????

I'm Leaving u............

O..... Coming to the last day [Tuesday, 10th May 2005] of me to SERVE "THE GADGETS SHOP SDN BHD"... Since the day i tendered my resignation letter, I have been lepaking in da office everyday!!!! It has been a very very boring period for me as I feel not worth to put my effort on work anymore. Even though HE got a new gal for me to trained up... but.. I feel sorry to say that she is leaving as well. Not my fault, I just telling her the truth and the truth that she wanted to know from me. Herself also telling me that she doesn't like HIM that much.

On last Wednesday, I went for an interview on Wisma Cosway, the Finance Manager is kinda friendly and nice. We chatted alots, it's more like chatting than an interview. Should I say that's a casual interview? Been interviewd for about an hour. And he sound like taking me into his company. Can see that he is kinda like me as he smile to me always, not those FAKE SMILE eh!! :) But I'm not really sure, as everyone know that I'm kinda INNOCENT.. mayb I'm WRONG.

I'm goin to Bangkok on this coming Friday... kinda... EXCITED!!! :P I'm goin for holiday again!!! :P eeeemmm... I start loving to travel around... it's kinda fun, relax, enjoy... :) Sometimes, I do think that I'm really having good life as I got not much burden, beside my new home ya!!! and I can do whatever I like as mama neva control us on our freedom. :) I love my mama always!!! We are happy family eh!! :)

So, my most concern now is... looking for a better job after I come back from Bangkok lohhh.... Have to loh, if not, How to pay off my credit card, my home installment eh??? If not because of HIM... I won't leave... sighhhhh...

Monday, May 02, 2005

Disappointed..mixed with Happiness

I feel disappointed on Eugene Teh, after so many years, he still feel ashame to face me. He don't even dare to pass me the CD face to face, he pass it to David. Gosh... He dare to betrayed me but he don't dare to face me till today. Bet that he sure feel deeply sorry and guilty on what he did to me. I'm not sure about it, and I have no idea on what's in his mind nowadays. I do feel disappointed on what he did recently. I means he doesn't have the guts on facing me.

Kent told me that he is in Sabah now, I wondering what he is doin over there. I like him more and more even I seldom have the chance to meet him as he is always busy with his classes. :) He is such an attractive man for me :) Having him as my friend is already the best thing that happened on me.

Today is Labour Day's Holiday... Happy Holiday!! Yesterday I went out with Mei Yee, been lepak with her in 1U for da whole day. In da night time, both of us meet up with Chiew Lan in Mont Kiara's Coffee Bean... It has been a long while that we didn't meet up for chit chat. We did have a very very good chat last night!! What an enjoyable day... :)