Redang Trip....

Just for your information that the bikini girl in the photo is NOT me..... I yet have so sexy body... :P Give me more time to make it, then I will take more photo with BIKINI... Hahahahhaha... Let's pray hard for it then.

Wonderful island, beautiful beach, unforgetable sea., lovely moments..... This is my second time to Redang Island... Still very excited... Life is so wonderful there, everything is slower down, mind is relaxed... body is lazy... only thing that goes with high speed is...TIME.

More photos to show.... But lazy now... :P

Lovely island... but I looks like a burned bread... LOLZ.... Dark & Round... :P

MmmMMmMmmMMmmmm... miss the days in Redang Island.

让我哭吧。。。。

发现我们电话里 常常沉默了
想看的电影 也不不再相同了
你的眼神 虽然是温柔的
却像另一个人 在面前那样陌生
如果我能穿着你最不喜欢的颜色
嘴里哼着你最不爱听的情歌
你能不能对我在冷漠一点呢
至少让我以为你不在爱我了
亲爱的 为什么你还不敢承认呢
亲爱的 我们都是脆弱的人
亲爱的 听时间的话放开手
别感伤应该感动 我最亲爱的
如果我能穿着你最不喜欢的颜色
嘴里哼着你最不爱听的情歌
你能不能对我在冷漠一点呢
至少让我以为你不在爱我了
亲爱的 为什么你还不敢承认呢
亲爱的 我们都是脆弱的人
亲爱的 别牵着没感觉的手
真的不怪你 我太爱你才说不出口
亲爱的 我也不相信心会疲倦的
亲爱的 我们别再骗自己了
亲爱的 听时间的话放开手
别感伤应该感动
我们都记得
相爱最诚实这一刻
对我说你不爱我
谁的泪都别留
如果能重来一次
请别再这样宠爱我
我太幸福 就会忘了
爱终有慢慢变化时候
亲爱的 为什么你还不敢承认呢
亲爱的 我们都是脆弱的人
亲爱的 别牵着没感觉的手
不怪你太爱你才说不出口
亲爱的 我也不相信心会疲倦的
亲爱的 我们别再骗自己了
亲爱的 听时间的话放开手
别感伤应感动
我最亲爱的


从不相信，心是会疲倦的。我一直以为，只要心中有爱，为什么不可以爱下去。原来，心。。。真的是会疲倦的。当一个人看清楚某样事情，不再抱有什么期待，不再期望什么奇迹的时候。。。心已是淡了。是因为爱你，所以会有期待，期望。如果取代的是失望，再来失望。。还有什么继续的理由？

如果，彼此都不珍惜对方，为什么还要走下去？是因为寂寞吗？是因为懒得再寻找另一个吗？还是因为习惯？好累。。我好想哭。。好想大哭一场。常听别人说，情到深处，寂寞更深。。。现在我明白了。懒于沟通，过于习惯。。。反而，大家都没有什么想对对方讲了。

让我哭吧。。。或许我会舒服一点。。。

Yaa.... it's all HER fault.....

Imagine, how would you feel when you actually told SOMEONE that you do not want to pick him up by late hour he suggested as it’s actually quite dangerous for a girl to drive alone through such dark and quiet road but someone insisted? Does he really think on your safety?

Again, SOMEONE told that he got SOMETHING to do and insisted to be picked up later in the night instead of earlier. So, the driver got nothing to do?

Here comes, the DRIVER actually told SOMEONE that she actually need to meet up friends to pass them something that been owing for long time and need to go to bank with a sum of monies as the payment will be due on the day she will be away. Then, SOMEONE doesn’t really care and insisted the DRIVER to go pick him up after that. Does he really care that she is actually going to bank alone with monies?

Then, SOMEONE can sleep soundly and does not give a damn on what time actually the DRIVER got home and she actually went to bank alone. How you want her to feel good and happy after she found out that actually SOMEONE does not give a fucking care on her safety??

SOMEONE claimed that the DRIVER hurt his feelings as she can go meet up with her friends till late but not going to pick him up through that dark and quiet road. So, the DRIVER does not feel hurt when she knows actually SOMEONE doesn’t care that she going to bank alone and drive back alone.

After all the above, how we expect the DRIVER can actually feel happy after she knew that SOMEONE does not care at all on her safety or whatever that will happened on her? SOMEONE can claim that DRIVER hurt his feelings and who going to give a fuck about the DRIVER’s feelings?

For me, if the guy does not really think on the girl’s safety and not considerate enough to protect her from anything that might happened on her, how would the girl have the feelings of secure in this relationship? Since both parties seeing each other as not appreciating each other's effort, what’s the point to go on? Since each other being so selfish to give in, what’s the point of going through all this? Since each other can’t see each other, what’s the point of doing all this and keep saying that "you do not appreciate me" to each other?

Kindly think on how you have treated people before you claimed that someone has hurted your feelings. Not only that you have feelings, others has it too.

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Girls, tends to know SOMEONE’s feelings clearly, in solidity. So, is that a girl’s fault when she said that she wanted to know a guy’s feeling on certain things clearly? What’s the problem of expressing them either in words, writing or whatever senses?? Is that damn difficult to express? If it’s so difficult and unwilling to share, then better stay with your ownself.

It will only be damn difficult to express if you do not care of something but wanted to pretend that you do are.

Wish you were here.......

Attended another wedding dinner. An ex colleague of mine. Not really very close with him... Met many of my ex colleagues on the dinner... like old time. We used to hang out together a lots... Concerts, clubbings, gatherings, trip, makan makan... very happy hang out gang.

However, I attended this dinner by myself... I feel OK all the while till.... the prawns is served. Arghhhh... no one peel me the prawnnnnn.... :( Suddenly I miss SOMEONE so much... coz he will peel me prawns.... :P No choice lah, have to peel it by myself...

I'm kinda emotional today, I feel so touched when I watched a Hong Kong series this afternoon.. Feel wanna cry... then I feel like having SOMEONE beside me... I need someone to hug... I need to feel love. Then, I went for nap, with my lonely feelings... so sad.

I wish.... you were here with me......

Sex before Marriage......

I read an interview days before. A lady, who is a relationship advisor, professional and therapist. She talked about SEX BEFORE MARRIAGE.... is very important!!!!!!

She brought up a question, "Why we can't have sex before marriage?" As long as we know clearly on what we are doing and we are protecting ourself well, it is not a problem to have sex before marriage. She also mentioned that only LOVE is not strong enough to hold 2 different person together, but by adding in SEX, the relationship will be so strong to destroy. This is due to the intimate feelings bond us together.

When you able to have sex with someone, means you feel comfortable with that person. If not, you won't be able to be naked in front of that person. Imagine that you are actually showing your spare tyre to someone, how could you do it if you do not feel comfortable or trust that person who going to have sex with you? A person's hidden personalities always expose easily when he/ she is on bed, therefore, faster go have sex with someone you think he/ she is the POTENTIAL one. Hahahahaahah....

Having sex before marriage also able to tells how well both of you can get along. If either party feel not comfortable with the other party when having sex, the problem can always be fix more faster and easier. If really can't work out, at least we won't have the problem of STUCKING IN THE MARRIAGE. It sound ridiculous that we telling the Judge the reason of divorce is..."I don't like the way he/ she fuck me." :P Of course, communication between 2 person will also help lots on improving sex life. But, I do wonder how many do really tells their bf/ gf on how they feel on sex. For myself, I will tell if I really do not like what he is doing to me... But I will still find it's not easy to say out as it might hurt the man's ego. You know lah....men... always ego ego one...

One night stand is called "ONE NIGHT LOVE" among chinese, this lady did talked about ONE NIGHT LOVE. One Night Love is not love... Feelings is not included. It's purely on physical sactisfaction but everyone putting it in a ROMANTIC way just to hide their lusty desire. We all know clearly that what is ONE NIGHT STAND, just to release our lust and that's all... no feelings involved.. If really got feelings, it won't last for ONE NIGHT only, it will be MANY NIGHTS STAND. So there you can understand why I never really want to mentioned about my ONE NIGHT STAND as it is all because of my lust. It can't deny that I do have NEEDS too.. anyway, I'm a human [this statement is what I've learn from those men that flirt around].

I do agreed with her that sex before marriage is very important, not only to know a person well, but to see whether we are compatible on sex, behaviours and point of view as well. I do believe that men do show their REAL COLORS after they ATE you. Firstly, I saw few of them. Secondly, they thought you are already labeled by them and you won't go away. Sex is not what so important but the personalities of the man you going to spend your time with. What's the big deal that he has a big cock with good oral skills but he is an abuser who always beat you up? Will you die because of that big cock and tongue? I won't lohhh...

Yes, to find someone that compatible on sex and personalities with yourself is very difficult .. But still, there's always a HOPE.. There are many fishes in the pond mah.... still got many trees in the forest... Relationship, it's the mixture of TRUST, TOLERATION, SEX, LOVE, SACRIFACTION & SATISFACTION. I'm demanding, I can't live with a relationship that lack of either one as above.

Yes, I'm always greedy on LOVE & SEX.

An Inconvenient Truth

An Inconvenient Truth, an documentary about global warming, Al Gore has revealed the most uneasy fact to the public by giving speech around the world. It's now showing in KL PAC, FOC I think. Get your free ticket, bring your HEART along and watch it with your HEART.

If the scientists are telling the truth, we are now sitting on a bomb that will explode by anytime. The changes in climate had brought us so many disasters that give us no sign. It’s caused by us, the human. The increase number of population put more burden on the earth as it lead to more energy usage and release more CO2 which will worsen the effect of global warming. So, I think my thought is good for the earth as I’m not planning to have any kid.

Are you ready to change your lifestyle? Ya, we may not powerful enough to eliminate the problem, but if every one of us start being more concern on this issue and start using lesser energy, eg. Electricity, petrol and etc… I think the world will be much beautiful. I know it’s very difficult to change our lifestyle that we are so used to be… it’s difficult for me too. Imagine one day, we no longer have land as the water covered our home, our building, our beautiful mountains. I wonder how’s life will be. Maybe I have no chance to wait till the day to come, but I’m afraid it won’t be too long to be the day.

This documentary does hit my heart and my thinking seriously. Sadly to tell that how many people will really change their lifestyle after they know the truth of how serious of the problem we are facing now. We keep developing our country, keep digging the treasure of nature, keep putting GOLD into our mind…. Who going to care how our earth feel?? I can 100% guarantee that you will really feel sad for the earth and feel guilty on what we have done to the nature.

Let me take my steps slowly…. First, eat less :P.... less demand less supply, less supply less production. Argh.. I know I can’t help much on this. Recycle, use less papers, separate tins and papers. When mentioned about RECYCLE, I remember my SISTER does asked me to join them for a charity activity on RECYCLE. Maybe, I can join them. Gotto check with her then.

We’ve been taking the earth for granted for sooooooo many years.. it’s now angry and asking for pay back. Who should we pity at??

I have no idea....

I love you.... but......

There are more and more people around reluctant to go into marriage as they are so afraid of... RESPONSIBILIES.

"Yes! I do love you... but...." Break-up happened after the incident... because he/ she feel that the gf/ bf is actually wanna tight him/ her up. Why would you view a marriange as TIGHTED YOU UP? It's because you do not want to bear any responsibilities but fool around even though you do think that you are SERIOUS in this relationship.

According to my mom, the MEN of her time always put MARRIAGE as GOAL for having a relationship. But from what I see, MEN are no longer having that as their GOAL but a steady partner who able to provide them sex and companion. RESPONSIBILITIES???? Who give a damn?? Of course, there have some GOOD MEN in this world too.. not all wanna get rid of the RESPONSIBILITIES. Always trying hard to let my mom know about THE MEN of this century... but, it's just a mission impossible as she is too used to THE MEN of her time. I really wish I know how to tell her about the MEN of my time.

Is a marriage cert that important? For me, it is less impostant if not planning to have any kids. But!!! it is important if the guy you going to marry is RICH... Hahahahahhaa... However, most of the WOMEN IN LOVE ever think of have some kids with the one she loves. Even though that no one really care about the cert nowadays, but it's still a dream for all the GIRLS. An aunty like me no longer dream on it if not planning to have kids. The dream been killed due to too much disappointment. LOLZ. But, who will feel unhappy if a man you love knee infront of you, asking you to marry him with bunch of flower and a DIAMOND RING? :P ARGH!!! WOMAN!! day dream always!



Forgive me on my feeling of insecure and have no trust on MEN.

You choosed....

Arghhh... already the last day of CNY...so fasttttt..... it's too short to be enjoy... :P

Been bz on working, yoga and some other activitiesss... and also..very lazy... :P and also got nothing special to blog... out of idea... need some INSPIRATION...

Actually, got something happened lah.. a distant friend of mine, having an affair with a guy [my mom's friend's son] who is married but lied to this girl that he is single at first. Then the girl found out but still continue the relationship with the guy because the guy LOVES her very much... [ Judgement based on the ROLEX costs RM10K that he bought for her, and also a CONDO that he said will buy for her as their LOVE NEST and also based on he paid for almost every expenses of her...] She doesn't want to listen even my friends advising her and warn her that this guy is only fooling her because we knew that she is not the only girl that he FALLS IN LOVE with... got few girls before this stupid girl friend of us. However, we all know that she is kinda materialistic since we know her.. and this bastard is just the tea for her --> willing to spend on a mistress [for sex]... So, I would say... each fulfill each other's requirements. That's a good one. But, we will not pay a single pitiness to the girl if the bastard dump her due to her irritating attitude. Ya, we are terribly bad.

I can't take when someone called me MISTRESS... I 100% can't take it and that's why I will take it as a fling even I've been with married men. Because, I know that I'm just too lonely that time, what I want is only someone to comfort my lonely heart. My friends told me that they do not pity on her as this is what she choosed... even they told her tat's is not right after she knows that he is actually married. I told my mom about her friend's son being so bastard... :P She said... men are all da same!! same untrustable, bastard. As chinese said... THE PIG WILL CLIMB UP TO THE TREE IF MEN CAN BE TRUSTED... Kakakakaka.. AGREE!!!

Will a relationship last long if it's build on money and sex??? I wonder.


Time to sleep...

Piggie.....

I'm back from being a pig for more than a week. CNY is always the most horrible holidays for me as I will eat like nobody business, sleep always and spend lots of money.... So after a horrible but enjoyable holidays, I have to force myself back to the real world... it's so cruel... :(

Anyway, kinda bz with my sister, family and friends... and also my nap and food/ snacks... Kakakakaka.... After being a crazy pig, I also have to force myself not to eat so much again.... I gained some weight back in a week!!!!!! Arghhhh... my effort wasteddddd... Sad! I have to start the COMBAT again... Sad!!! New year resolution already failed... LOLZ.

Time to sleep lohh... got some interesting story to share... update soon.

Night, my love.