Eugene....

Due to the need of reformat my laptop urgently, i sms-ed him last few days. I neva expect that he will reply my sms as I do not think he will has such helping hand on me. But suprisingly, he did reply me. Juz something normal and nothing meaningful over there. Sadly, this remind me of our old good times. I start missing those old good times again, I start thinking of him again. Sadly, I have to admit that he never move out from my heart, and I insist to keep a place for him in my heart even we oredi broke off for almost 2 yrs. I understand tat he is oredi a past, but I can't forget. I understand that no matter how much I love him, we can't be together. I know that we won't be together.. i know it damn well. He is still the pain in my heart.

I do know that I should move on, I did. But juz that when he come into my mind, my tears will neva be in control. My pain will neva been healed like i thought. I'm such a lamer, I know. 4 years.. how to let go juz like that while I neva did anything wrong but because of that bitch! I know I should hate him for treating me like that, but I know it well, if god giv us the chance to be back again, I will never reject the offer. Such a LAMER!!!!

My DaySSsSSSSS.....

Nothing much happened lately, but Kent did sms me today, he said something like he is very bz on work lately. Kinda happy :) Went for coffee with Phui Leng just now, she told me many things happened on her lately, her story made me feel tat im not that worse yet. Even I resigned, even that I haven't got a job offer, even that I'm no longer seeing Alvin, even that I got no one to be with me currently.... But I do feel happy that I have a happy family.. and we live happily without any big problems or issues.

I have got myself a new mobile phone... :) got camera one!! now i can take my own photo anytime, anywhere i like!! hahahahaha.. so happy.. it's SONY ERICSSON K700i... not bad not bad... kinda happy with it so far... just got it for about 2 weeks... :) i took so many pretty photo of mine.... when i got my laptop formatted and installed the sony ericsson's software... i will transfer all the photos in here yaa... :)

Peter is back to Penang oredi, I only able to spend 2 nites with him as he is kinda bz on entertaining his colleagues and bosses.. but we did have our good time and memorised moments :)

Finalllyyyyy....

hahahhahahaahahahahhaha...... hahahhahahahahahahhah..... im damn happy today!! do you know why am i do happy and so crazy??? it's all because of him... my yoga instructor --> KEN. opsss... his name should be KENT.... Finally, he got my card and he SMS me... :) I read twice of the sms to realised that's the KENT that i always dream on tat SMS me. I being so blur is because actually i did give up on waiting, as I tot he wont SMS me even he got the card!! When i gave up, he SMS me. :P IM SO HAPPY!!!!!!! Even that his sms is formal and got nothing special at all, but im still very very very very happy that i got a SMS from my KENT!! :P I did reply his SMS... but he didnt reply me oh... abit sad... but still....HAPPY lah! slowly lahhh... cannot rush mah! :) hahahahahahaha... i cant stop smiling lah!! :P