Nothing more......

"When I looked into your eyes with a smile on my face...... my heart says I LOVE YOU......"

Although this is not from his mouth, it's only from his fingers through MSN. But the feelings of touching covered me 100%.... Instantly, my mind filled with his smile... Only I realised how many times he been saying I LOVE YOU to me. When he looking into my eyes with a smile on his face, I always wonder what is in his mind. His eyes filled with happiness and love... but I never know it's the words that I always wanted to hear from him.

My tears are terrible.... they dripping off from my eyes once my eyes read through the sentence. My heart almost cannot bear the feelings of being so touched. It has been a very long time that I feel so.

I always seeking for assurance from him.. trying to get him tell me something that I think is meaningful to me. Always asked him those silly questions... just to assure myself that he is not fooling around in this relationship. I know that I'm stupid and silly... but this is me. I always need someone important to assure me as I'm a person who need many many assurance to feel secure.

With this sentence... I do not need anything. I only need your love... nothing more than that.

I Love You......

Just finished a novel. Very touching, made me feel like crying.

I feel like crying.

Love is not easy but simple. Ya, very simple as ABC. I love you because I love you, because I'm happy to be with you, because I feel comfortable to be with you, because I wanted to be with you. I love you is not because you are handsome, not because you are rich, not because you treating me good, not because you give me everything I want. It's all because...... I LOVE YOU.

Everyone will met their love once in their life time. They may not end up together forever, they maybe get married, they maybe divorced after married, they maybe seperated by death.. there has too many possibilities to be happened on a pair of lovely couple.

We do not know how to appreciate when we were young. We might be better when we grow older as we know who is treating us with their true heart. However, it's always a little bit too late when we realised who is the one we love most.

Love always come to us when we are stupid and blur.
Love always leave us alone when we need it da most.
Love...... is da most beautiful but painful thing in da world.

Such a B*sta*d.......

I do not understand this man. Why he able to tell you that how much how much they care for you but his action is totally the opposite way? He said all the nonsense because to make himself feel better or to make me feel good?

Mr. A, the most confusing man I ever met in my life, still as confusing as ever. He is very concern on my relationship. I wonder why. He told that he cares of me. “Oh???? Really??” He claimed that he care of me very much, and always wanted to be with me. Just that the timing is not right and he is not ready that time. So, now I’m with my honey, he came and told me that he is ready and found a potential girl.. should I say that she is already his gf as I know what they did. I didn’t spy on them of course but he told me everything. But still, he keep telling that he feels pain when he knows that I’m going well with this new relationship. Ok, Since that’s so pain, how come you able to have a new gf? Is she a substitute or only a lust releaser?

Please be kind to your gf, Mr. A. She putting her heart on you, expecting you to treat her heart sincerely and love her loyalty. But, I did not see your loyalty on her love. In fact, you keep telling me that you care of me, but too bad that I already have my honey. From what you said, I already can see how flirtly you are. You already got a new gf, but still do not want to let go of me even though you know that I already have a bf now. Don’t you think that you are god damn selfish? and god damn greedy!

I feel so sorry for you, Mr. A’s gf. Your bf is hugging you, kissing you but his mind still got another girl, maybe I'm not the only one. But please do not worry, I’m not interested in him at all, I told him to get lost and do not call me, sms me, msn me or email me anymore. Since I’m the one who caused the pain in his heart, now I want to release him from his pain by asking him to leave me all by myself. I wish that he will treat you nicely and love you sincerely.. I wish that his love to you is because he love you but not because that he is lonely and horny.

Mr. A, you are sux and irritating!

Nonsense...... again......

Been very busy on work. My working life still as sux as usual. My senior still as unhelpful as normal. My gang still happy as ever. Hardly go for shopping, go for coffee or even.. go to the night market. Stress... stress... and stress... that what I got from this job. Maybe.. I'm not suit to this job, or maybe I'm really too stupid for this job. Headache whenever I'm over stressed. And the headache can kill me easily, really torturing.

Finally, the renovation for my new apartment started. And I will be very busy for this. Ya, it's kinda excited on thinking that we are moving into this new apartment soon. But, all the tiny tiny things are bothering me so much. Still...... have to handle everything, impossible to let my mama handle it all by herself, right? I'm not that useless anyway :P

I have to shop for living room's furnitures, my room's furnitures, bathrooms' items... and bla bla bla...... Last night, went to buy some lights and wall fans, costs us RM2600. Horrible.... really horrible.

My lovely sister is coming back for this coming Chinese New Year... YEAHH!!!! Chinese New Year is coming. I'm so busy on doing the new year shopping with my mama and for myself. Planning to get myself a pair of jeans... Unable to spot at any... Poor thing, think that I have to wear my old jeans for this Chinese New Year.

Someone asked me about my HONEY. Of course that I'm in love with him, if not I won't be wanted to be with him so much. If not, I won't call him honey. If not, I won't bring him home to meet my mama. If not, I won't miss him so much.

He maybe ordinary for others, but for me... he is the most special and precious one. At least, there has no doubt on my love for him. Ya, finally... after so many guys passing through.... my lonely period.. I finally got him who is so kind, so considerate, so caring, so lovely, so intelligent, so fun to be with, so polite, so horny...... hahahahaha... No lah, I still have to find out whether he is so horny type or not.

Never though that we might go into any relationship as he used to push me away indirectly. Not that he rejected me or what, just that he is not so keen and I feel disappointed on it. About to give up when he finally show me some hints. Hahahha... kinda drama.

I love you, Honey. I do.
If you allowed me, I would want to love you for the coming years till we grow old.
Feelings may change... I wish I will always have the urge to love you..... till the day I die.
At least.... I love you with 100% now. I do hope, you feel da same too.

Life is beautiful...... especially when you are beside me.

Miss You.......

I'm already missing you badly.

No worry, I will take good care of myself when you are not around. And I will miss you every single minutes too.

The night was great. You are great too. I love everything we do together. When we jokes around, when we laugh out loud, when we looking into each other's eyes, when we walking hand in hand, when we watching movie together, when we hugging, when we......

Yes, I am your baby. I'm always your baby.

I can't help but keep falling in love with you. I love you, Honey.

My Life......

My working life is sux.....

My love life is great......

My social life is wonderful......

My family life is happy......

Due to my working life, my unhappy mood lead myself to be so negative thinking. But, I'm lucky because I have my honey beside me. If not, I think I already cannot take the pressure till today. Appreciate my honey's patience to listen to me, talk to me, comfort me. His effort on spending time with me made me feel much happier than anything. I'm glad that I have him around me when I'm being soooooo unhappy.

Chinese New Year is around the corner...... Again, need to rush on the work as we will have so many holidays. Another dying period coming to me. Been sick for don't know how many times after joined this company. The company and my colleagues are nice [my gang I means], but my workload and my senior are not user friendly at all. I hardly take them easily. I did my best, but seems that everyone can do it, but I'm the only one who can't handle it.

I feel so useless. I started to think negatively.

I do not know how to handle it...... I'm lost

Happy New Year... 2006

新年快乐！！并没有如何庆祝这么一个有情人的新年。我们反而想留在家中，窝在一起。安静的陪伴着对方。多么的温馨。以前，我也许会说。。为什么那么闷的啊？？现在，我反而喜欢这种方式。

他在我家过了一夜。他亲吻了我。好甜的吻。有他在身旁，我睡得好暖。我们情不自禁的吻了无数次。他睡得不好，因为他习惯了睡在冷气房。我家只有风扇。但是，他说他想习惯睡在没有冷气的房间。多贴心。

他的吻，好软，好温柔，好甜。。。在一起了两个月，我们的初吻。令我好紧张，好心动。感觉与他亲近了许多。当他轻轻的拨弄我的头发，抚摸我的脸，温柔的亲吻我的鼻子，我的嘴唇。。我好感动。好久没有任何人令我如此感动，令我如此感觉被爱。好久。。。好久。。。我不曾感觉如此温馨。

除了以前的他，我从未如此感动过。虽然我有许多的男朋友，但是我不会因为他们的吻而感动。因为他们不曾如此疼惜我。爱是感觉，爱是尊重。他给予我全部。我非常感谢他对我的尊重。他的温柔，是我从未遇过的。

原来，上天对我还是不错的。我流失了许多的感情，眼泪。。但是它赐予我一个如此完美的男人来爱我，疼我。这一次，我的泪是因为我太高兴了。我真的非常感动。

有了你，我的生命才完整。我的失败是因为要迎接你的到来。我的眼泪是因为要洗去我心中的悲伤，用我这新的心来面对你。

谢谢你的爱。我好爱你！！