Gifts......

The above are the gifts I got from SOMEONE's FAMILY ... First time I have so many Christmas Gifts... :P Not the gifts that count, but the heart and care... What I got??? 2 cook books, Bodyshop shower gel, Biotherm lip gloss, Mobilephone accessory, Scarf, Smarties, Hands care product, Fragrance pack and one very heavy but nice key chain? I'm not sure what's that for actually... :P Just something to hang as decoration on your handbag or whatever.

Ate a lot of FATTENING FOOD.... very guilty now...... tried not to eat lunch today... but I'm too hungry and ended up I bought a pack of nasi lemak from Giant plus a fried chicken... More guilty now... damn!!!!! Today, I try not to make myself coffee also... Kakakka...ya, I didn't drink coffee today... but was so sleepy and less energy...

Today, I was lazing around in the office... not really in mood to work... :P deeply in holiday mood... I think everyone also the same as today is kinda relax and easy day... What a working day... How nice it would be if everyday also like this got nothing much to do. I know it's IMPOSSIBLE lahhh... :P

This necklace and the set of earring and necklace are the gifts I got for my best friend and my mom... Nice eh?? :) And I also got someone a branded belt... forgot to take photo of it... Kakakaka..... and SOMEONE got me the BENEFIT COMESTIC SET as my Xmas gift mahhh.... :) I'm using it... looks very pretty liao... :P

This Christmas was a very very very busy and exhausted one... but, still fun. After Christmas, there come New Year... 2007 is coming... and I'm older... WAH!!! sad!!!!!

Resolution of Yr 2007....
- SLIM DOWN
- SETTLE DOWN IN MY CAREER
- NO MORE BAD TEMPER
- HEALTHY
- BE HAPPY & SWEET ALWAYS
- MORE MONEY
- GET MARRY

All are difficult to reach... LOLZ!!!!! Anyway, try my best loh.....

Christmas eve.....

People said.... "Christmas eve is the night to get laid..." I heard about this since I'm very young... from newspapers I think... My mom only say that to me when I was in college... Every year also I will read about this in newspapers, to warn those young innocent couples not to try out the NEW EXCITING ACTION in this lovely happy season.

Last time, the innocent stupid me will think, "AIYA!!! Y MUST CHOOSE THIS NIGHT??? SO EASY TO GIVE VIRGINITY TO PEOPLE MEH???? ". Then, when I'm elder, I will think..."HA!!! WHO WILL GET LAID TONIGHT LERRR???" Now, I will think..."YEW!!! I WANT IT EVERY NIGHT LAH!!!" Hahhahahaa.... no lah..where got so terrible... I just trying to tell that nowadays.. youngster no longer so innocent as we used to be.

Seriously.... my 1st night with my ex-bf was on Christmas Eve... Hahahahaha... it's all because of the ROMANTIC FEELINGS around us.... I always love Christmas as every shopping mall will decorate the mall very nicely, beautiful and it's the time where all of the malls got SALES!!! :P Ya, as a SHOPPING FREAK... I never missed out this wonderful sales period... [I spend a lots already... :( ]

Anyway, it's funny when we think back on the old thinking and compare with today's world.

So, what am I going to do on this coming Christmas Eve??? MAKE LOVE loh!!! What else??? LOLZ... Dinner, Gifts Exchange... That's all.. :)

Time to prepare NEW YEAR RESOLUTION... but I'm too lazy now... Arghh... will update soon then... :P


Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.... to myself...and to my family and those who I love!!!

MeRRy ChRisTMasSsSsSssssss.......

YEAH!!!!!! Christmas is just around the corner.... Happy Happy ehh.... In holiday mood liaooo.... Kekekekke.....

Look at the cutey bearsss... Another Xmas gift I got for this year... Wondering how someone know that I do collect McD's toys... Do I looks CHILDISH??? Anyway... Thankssss ya... :)

I bought some small gifts for my cousins this year... Just something cheap.. but think that they will be happy to get some gift at this lovely season... :)

Can't wait for Christmas day to comeee....... We wish you a merry christmas... we wish you a merry christmas... we wish you a merry christmas... and a happy new yearrrrrrrrrrrrrr

YEAH!!!!!!!!

LOLZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

?錢毆打‧恫言閹割副經理被越南太太虐待
updated:2006-12-20 21:24:01 MYT

（吉隆坡?）51歲的高級副經理娶了一名越南女子當老婆，結果新婚生活有如一場惡夢的開始；他除了被受過軍訓的老婆狂打，還被逼寄錢救濟老婆家人，老婆沒有錢就發狂，甚至恫言割斷他的子孫根，令他提心吊膽不敢睡覺。這名葉姓男子是在一間保險公司?融部當副經理，原本是一名逍遙自在的鑽石王老五。他最近賣掉一間屋子套到一些現金，加上朋友推薦通過代理認識到太太；

他和太太從見面、認識到擺喜酒結婚是在1個月的時間內倉促進行。求張天賜遣送太太回國自認是這場婚姻受害者的葉先生週三（20日）在多名好友的陪同下，向馬華公共服務及投訴部主任拿督張天賜求助，要求代理出面解決這個問題，為他作主遣送太太回國，他真的不能忍受被毆打，更日夜擔心太太半夜真的會割掉他的子孫根，有時候連吃飯都擔心被下毒，這種日子他真的捱不下去。

葉先生說，他跟其太太於今年7月第一次在代理安排下見面就很投機，對方過后搬去他家住；開始時，該名28歲的女子很勤勞，打理家務井井有條，但是結婚后對方的態度就改變了，一天到晚都向他討錢要寄回家，每次都是數千元美金。他娶老婆已花了逾5萬令吉，賣了兩間屋子的現金都花光，還要向老母親借錢。

太太受過軍訓
葉先生的老婆在越南受過軍訓，對搏擊、射擊和突襲都有一定程度的訓練，她雖然身型不算高大，但是非常健壯，葉先生絕對不會是她的對手。葉先生說，他太太是在無意中向他透露在越南受過類似服兵役的生活，他每次被打都沒有機會還手，他說自己不是不夠她打，她只是不想打女人，但是他每次想到枕邊人有如一名特種部隊成員時就很害怕，擔心睡醒時其重要部位已被割下來。

他說自己想太多了，但是吃飯時還是想過，對方會不會下毒藥毒死他。他記得有一次告訴老婆不想有孩子，結果老婆在他面前亮刀搖晃，嚇到他半死。

一杯拉茶改變生活
他和太太第一次見面是在嘛嘛檔，他請了對方喝一杯拉茶就將對方帶回家住，這杯拉茶改變了他平靜的生活。他說，代理當時告訴他一共有3名人選，他不想太多選擇，因此只要求對方帶一個最適合的人給他看看，他們在第一次見面就有一點感覺。他花了1萬4000令吉作為手續費，原本他沒有那么快做決定，他怪這名代理不斷慫恿他，還說有意思就盡快辦好手續結婚，否則這名女子很快就被送回國，令他作出了這項錯誤的決定。

<吁本地男子引以為鑑>
"我希望有意娶外國女子尤其是越南女子的男人小心提防，不要步上我的後塵。"他說這段經歷絕對是他一生不可以忘記的事情，雖然他覺得他太太是愛他的，但是可能更愛他的錢。

張天賜希望所有有意娶越南姑娘的本地男子引以為鑑，他已多次提醒，因為大家的文活習慣和文化有異，本地男子應該三思才迎娶外國女子，他會寫信要求越南駐馬大使注意此事，不要讓一些不良的代理利用有意嫁來大馬的越南女子幹下不法勾當或持不良目的。

太太婚後討錢都要美金"我太太和我結婚後每次討錢都要美金，他說越南人喜歡用美金，她每次討錢都有藉口，最后一次叫我救濟她，還說她母親在越南欠下大耳窿錢。""我老婆會講華語，她明白甚麼是大耳窿，原來越南也有大耳窿，我也是第一次听到，她每次討錢都是要寄錢回去，不是弟弟要錢，就是哥哥要，最后連母親都欠債累累。" 葉先生說他已花了逾5萬令吉在太太身上，他除了給現錢也給買了很多名貴東西給她，他自認做足丈夫本份。

（星洲日報‧2006/12/20)

Hahahahhahaah…. What else can I say on this beside laugh out loud??? Hahahhahahahahahaa.. STUPID & BAD LUCK MAN.

Ya, I should translate or summarize a bit on the above news that I read from newspaper.

This 51 years old Mr. Asst Manager who has just married a VIETNAM WIFE is being abused and threatened by her. Not only she beat him up but she also threaten him that she might cut off his penis if he doesn’t send money [USD] to her family. (Hahahahahaha….)

This marriage has done within a month period. He brought her home immediately after the first meeting… (too desperate to fuck!) So, due to the urge of the Agent, they got everything done within a month. At first, this VIETNAM WIFE was very polite, nice, lovely and hardworking. However, everything changed after they married. The VIETNAM WIFE started to asked him to send USD to his family very often and the amount she asked for is not little but few thousand USD on every requests (Hahahaha… very syok when fucking oh?? You thought no need to pay for it ha??)

She will beat him up and threaten him that she will cut off his penis when he asleep whenever he refused to send her family USD. This Mr. Asst Manager very very scared and dare not to sleep deadly every night. He said that he has been abused not only physically but also mentally. Then only he found out accidentally that his VIETNAM WIFE actually been trained in the ARMY. So now he scared his balls out and asked our Mr. Michael Cheong to send his VIETNAM WIFE off. Mr. Asst Manager also give his ADVICE to those who wanted to marry Overseas girl.. "Be caution when you wanted to marry any of the overseas girl, do not repeat my steps."

LOLZ!!! I can’t stop laughing on this.

Quoted from the guy who I met in the wedding dinner.. "men, do think with their penis."

Me......

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget.
You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it. You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you're a bit full of yourself. Your near future is a lot like the present, and as far as you're concerned, that's a very good thing.For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

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Sometimes, I'm forgetful. Sometimes, I'm not. Very realistic... I won't take things dreamy... I have no idea why am I so realistic.. maybe because of what I have went through or maybe I'm born like this. I won't say something just to please someone, I will always tell da truth... whether you like it or not... very frank and straight forward. But of course that I do understand the useful of telling white lies. Still, white lies seldom comes from me... I'm honest to my own feelings.. love is love, hate is hate. I won't tell " I don't know whether I like you or not... I'm so confused." for me, it's "i like you." I don't like to make things complicated.

I'm full of myself, you may call me selfish but I do think on others too. Not everytime but sometimes. Do not ask my how often, but I do. I love what I am now, as long as my job is secure and long lasting... I will be happy enough... as long as I got enough money for me to shopping, pay loans, go for expensive coffee/ meals once a while, go for some entertainment once a while.. then I'm a very happy fella. I do not ask much from my life... I only wish to be healthy, going well with my family, have a understanding and loyal hubby, have a lovely beautiful daughter, and no need to worry about monies... then I'm happy. Am I important to others??? I have no idea.

Ya, every woman asked for that kind of life.. I'm same as them because I'm simple as them. I'm still incompleted because I haven't go to somewhere I wished that I am now.

意见。。。。。。

如果你心中已有决定， 那便不需问旁人什么意见。当旁人给予你他的意见，又没有意思接受的话，倒不如不必问。

当你已作了决定， 就别浪费别人的心得及思考时间。

Play boy......

Have met with some college mates on the wedding dinner. A girl told me that she feel so left out to the "new world"... So, as a curious person, sure I did ask her "why you said so?" Then only I found out that she met a PLAY BOY with socalled GF that only want sex from her. She feel so upset on him and keep asking herself.. "am I old fashioned or the world changed? Why no one really be sincere and take seriously on having a long term relationship?"

As I've been talking all the while... it's hardly to find someone who really SINCERE in a relationship. That's why I always very jealous on my friends who able to find someone that wanted to spend his life time with her.. of course, there has no guarantee on it. I'm not cursing anyone but .... it is the fact. Of course that we all wish that our marriage will last till the day we have our last breath.. but how many couples able to make this happend on this century?? I wonder.

Even though I have no confidence on relationship or marriage, but I still will go into it as I'm a person who needs love so much and I love to love someone who I love with all my heart.

OK, back to this girl. She is very very upset about this.... I told her, most of the single guy at our age now do not care to have LONG TERM RELATIONSHIP anymore as they can just simply get someone to settle their sexual desire. They do not go to prostitutes... but someone they know through net, or a "normal" friend or friend's friend... as long as they do not HATE your appearance.

Then the whole table of people joined the FORUM... lolzzzz.... according to the guys, it is depends on the individual.. not all the guys is like that. But they didn't deny that guys think with their penis. Hahahahahahha...... I like this. Men, think with their penis.

So, our conclusion to the Girl is, forget about the bastard and move forward. And we also concluded that the elder we are, the higher expectation we have on our BF/GF... that's why it's more difficult for us to get someone.

Sigh... relationship, love... are always complicated. MEN, rather be a playboy than stay in a long term relationship nowadays.... or they prefer to buy WIFE from Vietnam/ China/ etc than marry the local ladies... It's so sad!!!!

Maybe we should buy OVERSEAS HUSBAND too.... somemore we can choose on their looks, how long their penis is, how thick their penis is, how good is their stamina, how good is their oral skill, whether they can cook or not, how good are they in doing house works... bla bla bla... Ha!!! good idea worrrr... maybe we can start a business like that since there are quite a lot of Malaysian Ladies are single.

EH!!!! What a good idea!!!!!

Wedding #7

This is a great one!

Attended Wedding of SY & TH @ Restaurant Damansara Palace on 10.12.2006. I knew them for 11 years.. and they been together for almost 10 years. I'm really happy for them... both of them also my close friend... SY is one of my gang when we were in college... we always study together, completed our assignments together, we went karaoke always, we spend most of our college moments together.... we were seperated when she went overseas to further her studies in Australia... time fliess. She is a pretty girl, kind, understanding, very straight forward and direct but she is nice even though she does speak very loud sometimes And TH used to be a very close friend of mine too, we used to chat always on phone, in college and we always jokes around and tease each other. TH used to be a very good looking guy among his gang. He has the height, specky, fair, neat, decent looking, got sense of humour.

After 10 years of up & down... finally, they are married. Really feel touched and sweet when watching them smile happily when walking around. Both of them love to sing, karaoke is the place they spend most of their time. Hence, they sing when they make their entry to the restaurant..we all cheers for them.. shout and clapsss...

Met many of my old college mates there... most of them are married... some even pregnant or already be a mommy or daddy.. I really feel that I'm very old already. Looking back to the old time, we were so young, having fun around with an innocent smile on our face. Now, most of them have family, kids... and everything, everyone changed. Everything changed.

Some of our college mates unable to attend the dinner due to some emergency... Anyway, we did have our good time... and we do feel happy and blessed our good friend a wonderful and happy marriage.

Happy Marriage!!! SY & TH

Lovely!!!!!!!

Benefits Comestic Set [RM268.00]

Finishing Powder - 1

Blusher - 1

Mascara - 1

Dark Brown- Dorothy Perkins [RM116.00]

Brown - SEED [RM24.50]

Light Blue - PDI [RM19.5]

Remember that I've drafted a list of the x'mas gift that I wish I can get in this year.... I got one of them by yesterday.. It's a very early x'mas gift from SOMEONE.

Due to the wedding dinner tonight, I need to dress up like a peacock again... make up is a necessary then. So, I have to buy a product from my fav comestic counter in order to get the FREE full make-up from them. I was eyed on this comestic set anyway... and I was thinking whether should I really go for it or just get something that won't burn my purse. The comestic set is not cheap at all and that's why I can't make up my mind. SOMEONE said "I buy for you as your X'mas gift lah.." I'm shocked that he said that to me.. as I never expected that he will do so.. It's so lovely.. so sweet... Thankss, Honey.

And I finally able to find a dark brown sweater that looks good on me... from DOROTHY PERKINS.. the price is above average but it really feel comfortable and looks good on me... :P And I also bought myself 2 tops... they are 50% off from their original price, so it's OK for me to have them as I do need some new clothes for coming Chinese new year and my new job.

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The 3 magic words that you said means a lots to me... I feel so touch that I heard it from you..

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Too many wedding dinners caused my slimming plan has no progress. Hate it.

Thanks for the gift, Honey. I love it!! and it's very very very sweet of you... Thankssssss

Wedding #6

Attended this wedding dinner #6 @ Royale Bintang on 08.12.2006. It was my ex colleague's wedding dinner. However, it's not the traditional chinese style.. they make it a Pool Side BBQ Buffet Style. I was late due to the heavy rain, only reached the hotel by 8:30pm.. :P

The food are almost gone when I'm there. The management did not refill them but left them be empty... looks so undecent and not nice at all. The first impression for this hotel's F&B is already died! There is this BBQ area at the other side of the pool... of course, we do not need to BBQ the food by ourselves.

So, I saw my ex colleagues. We did chat awhile before some of them leaving as they got another appointment. Then left Ms. J and Ms. E and Ms. Js. Nothing much but just updating each other about ourself.

Left the dinner by 1020pm. Eat and leave is what I do not like about buffet style wedding dinner. I think I still prefer the old style chinese wedding dinner even though it is much more troublesome than buffet style.

For me, it doesn't really looks like a wedding dinner but just a gathering among friends that held by someone.

Christmas is coming......

Christmas is coming again.... Time flies... I'm getting older and older... What a life???

It's so fast that Yr 2006 is leaving us soon. Very fast... till we hardly remember what have we done in this year. When I'm 6 years old, I always wonder how am I looks like when I'm 18... when I'm 18 years old, I can't imagine what life I will have in my 28... When I'm 28, I'm wondering where is my prince of charms... Hahahahha... anyway, I still got years to 38 years old... Now, I'm thinking... will I be married when I'm 38?? Good question!!!

For Year 2006, the list of Christmas Gift for Ms. Lonely Heart will be as below : -

1. Benefit Comestic Set - [Arghhhhh!!! I'm so in love with this comestic!!!]
2. A Wedding - [Anyone?????]
3. Good Health - [Ya, need it as usual. Been having flu and cough for weeks, never recover from it... scary..]
4. Lose more weight - [as usual... but never make it... LOLZ ]
5. A stable & wonderful dream job - [I don't even know what's my dream job is..]
6. Strike lotteriessss - [Yes, I'm very greedy one...]

Basically, I realised something... the older I am.. the less material items I needed when I'm drafting my list of items that I wanted. Maybe I already owned most of the items that I needed, so now is more on health, stability of life, settle down. Ha!!! this also means that I'm actually climbing up the hill... but of course, there is long way for me to reach the top.

I think, what I wanted the most now is, a family. A family of my own... with a hubby that love me so much, take care of me so much, plus a little beautiful girl in a 1500 sq ft condominium. I drive a small little orange color NISSAN MARCH, my hubby owned a MERC 4 wheels drive. O!! ya, plus a loyal, good attitude maid. Kakakkaka..... I'm also a good cooker, cook my hubby delicious dinner every night when he return to home after a hard day from work. The condo is cosy, clean, tidy, neat, warm, full with laughter of the family members..... my hubby cuddle me while having the little beautiful girl of us on his lap.. chatting and laughing with us.

Aiyaa... I know it's time to dream!!!! LOLZ.....

Another hard day tomorrow... Nite, my future hubby and my baby girl... muaksssssss

Wedding #5

Last night attended Wedding #5 @ Bukit Jalil Golf Club House. I went with my new dress, very decent and beautiful. The food is so so. Saw alots of old neighbours as this is one of my mom's old friend's daughter's wedding.

Some of them looks the same, some of them looks different. Most of the aunties/ uncles already old... no longer the uncles/ aunties that in our heart. I still remember there is a Kedai Runcit near my house in B'field. The lady owner is very fierce, she always scold her sons and she hardly has smile on her face. We gave her a nickname - FIERCE GRANDMA. Why we called her GRANDMA?? It's because she looks old due to the face that lack of smile. Now, she looks much older than what I remembered. I heard that her sons left her, her husband passed away.. she is all alone now. Such a pity lady.

Then, I saw one of the man that used to stay in the same house with us - Ah Lai. He actually is the landlord's son, he stayed in the small room at the back of our house in B'field. He is a very quiet guy that always stay in his room, play guitar or read. He does has a small tv in his small room and that's his only entertainment. We hardly talk and he hardly walk out from his room. He does has some friends who love to play badminton like him. Ya, he always go to play badminton with his friends at the back of our flat. That's the only time we able to see his ACTIVENESS. My sister and my always asked him to help us to fix our badminton racket's net. He still has his big glasses, messy hair style, tall but with tummy now. Think that he is still single.. don't ask me why I said so, I just feel it that way.

I also met 2 of my childhood friends, they are both married. One already has a 5 months old daughter and another not yet has any baby. I'm the only one who still wondering around while they already busy with their own family life. Both of them grow fat, this is what happened to people with happy family life. I feel happy for them.... :)

This wedding dinner brought me back to my old memories... my childhood in Brickfields. I've been stayed in B'field for 12 years since I'm born. There has so much unforgetable memories.. those old friends, old neighbours, old building..... Awww... I'm so old already.....

Anyway, It's good to see them again... I have a happy childhood by the way... :)

Gift......

Got a gift for my best friend whose birthday is on 2nd Dec. Hope that he will like it.

我。。。。。。

我只不过是一个非常简单的女人。

我只不过是一个喜欢听甜言蜜语的女人。

我只不过是一个想被人疼的女人。

我只不过渴望他的爱。

我只不过想他陪伴我。

我只不过需要他在我身边。

我只不过想知道他爱我。

人生

人生其实是一场骗局
到最后，你会发现。。。
一切最重要的都变成不重要。。。

知足

当你遇到一个可以容忍你的小姐脾气/ 会剥虾给你吃/ 会陪你出席宴会，载你去吹头，化妆/ 还担心你化妆时会口渴，饥饿/ 尽量不和你吵架/ 常听你发唠叨又不太插嘴/ 会在半梦中因你发脾气而打电话给你/ 记得你常用的卫生用品的品牌，还会帮你买的男人[虽然买错了香味]。我想，应该觉得幸福吧。

除了那么一点点的太好人，及太容忍和迁就家人，自我，有点骄傲以外。。我想他也是个非常可爱的男人。

福气

眼看着朋友们一个个的嫁娶。。看着那挂在脸上的幸福笑容，真心的替他们高兴。但是，我的心情是复杂的。虽然我总告诉朋友们慢慢的等待我那杯喜酒，但是，我内心深处真的是有点羡慕朋友们都找与他们一同走过这个人生的男人。我也想遇到一个愿意与我一起慢慢变老的男人，一个真心对待我的男人，一个疼爱我的男人。然而，我的情路总是比他人来的万分坎坷。

看着自己依然找不到依靠的心，真的有点伤感。开始感到有点寂寞。我真的开始想安定下来了。我开始想像自己的婚礼是如何，我会与何人共度一生？我会如何的度过我的人生呢？我感觉不到我已接近这阶段。我感觉不到有人会想与我分享我的下半生。我感觉不到，我看不到。。。那愿意娶我的人。

我开始可怜自己。我是那么的难以被爱吗？？还是我太固执，太执着了？我不着急，但是我开始感到可悲了。一路走来，我以为我会与他长久的，全是一场春梦。受伤害的只是我自己，因为我爱的很深, 非常深。

我向往结婚，但是我也恐惧被背叛。我也想与我爱的人结婚啊。。但是谁想与我结婚呢？？

朋友们，我真的非常羡慕你们的幸福。不是所有人都有你们的福气，至少，我至今都还没有这种福气。

Wedding Dinner #4

Shanice's Wedding Dinner @ Concord Hotel, 25.11.2006

Another busy wedding dinner as I need to help at the reception again. This time is a very messy and terrible one. Jeannie [best friend] and myself are so in mess as the person in charge is soooo.... MESS in his own plan. Not that I want to say bad about the name listing plan, but it's really not organised well.

Due to the respect to Shanice and due to the importancy of us, Jeannie [best friend] and myself went to do our hair and make up. My SOMEONE is so sweet and send me for all this faking process...[hair doing and make up]. SOMEONE even brought me my fav EXTREME MOCHA when I'm doing my make up at the BENEFIT counter [BENEFIT is a brand new comestic that from San Francisco, very wonderful and easy-to-use comestic; I LOVE IT]. Please refer to the above photos attached. I like this make up than the previous one as this is more natural and make me looks like.... ANGEL.. a sexy one. LOLZ!!!!!!

We only able to close the reception around 830pm as some of the guests are late... however, by the time we leave the reception, there are still "not yet arrive" guests. Malaysian... very well known by this usual habits. Overall, the food is not bad.. The bride is beautiful of course.

Due to the gathering, wedding dinners and my laming period... My battle [slimming plan] has no progress... No result. Still the same. Sigh.... sad case. I wanna lose 5kg more!!!! Damn it!!! should not eat liaooooooooooooo

More and more wedding dinners to come on December!!!!

Eeeee...??!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?

I was browsing on my friendster’s list. I’m looking through all my friends’ friends’ list… Ya, I’m too free and nothing better to do. Suddenly, I saw a very familiar face!!! My EX!!

I feel like a hit on my heart. It has been like ages that I have no news from anyone about him or I never bump into him at all. Maybe he did saw me from very far away but choose to avoid me. I always know that he is trying his fucking best not to see me due to his guiltiness. But, as a blur girl as me, I never saw him pass by or what-so-ever.

No, it’s not that I still have some kind of feelings towards him. It’s more like a long lost friend that suddenly appear in front of you and you will feel CURIOUS on how he is doing now [after all, I’m a damn busy body girl]. From the photos I see, he is slightly gay than last time, maybe for ‘OTHERS’, it is what they call it STYLISH. But for me, it is so GAY.

Why I said so?? I always think that I’m a kinda open minded person in no matter relationship or fashion. But, for a guy who wear RED PANTS… it’s freaking me out. This is never the person I know 7 years ago. No doubt that he is a VERY OBEY BF as he will wear whatever his GF bought him. But I do think it’s over-do by asking my own BF to wear a RED PANTS… I can’t accept it. Or maybe I’m getting old and outdated, but he is getting more and more FASHIONABLE.

In my eyes, he looks more like a pimp than anything now. Maybe it’s a good thing that he does changed to a more stylish man than last time, that only JEANS are his good buddy. Think that he is having his HAPPY life by looking at his photo as he smile so HAPPILY with his RED PANTS.

Awww… I shouldn’t criticize…... after all, he is my ex… even though he is a bastard that betrayed me. But, I really can’t help when I look at the photo…. GOSH!! IT IS SO GAY!!!!!!!

Useless......

Aiya...now I'm a useless people... lame & sitting at home, online.. not really do anything... Sighhh...VERY SAD!!!!!!!

I'm desperate for a job... desperatelyyyyy.... Went for few interviews..but still haven't get any reply or call back... Myself is interested in only one company that is doing RECYCLE MANAGEMENT.

Useless people still have to squeeze out monies to attend wedding dinnersssss... I'm thinking whether should I find some excuses and not to attend plus no need to give ang pao... :P Hahahaha..damn kiasu!! But I'm so pity!!!!! How??? How????

However, this useless people still walking here & there.... window shopping.... :P but, it's so torture to walk around in the mall when your wallet has nothing to fulfill your DESIRE... Sighhh.. somemore eh, christmas is coming mahh... nice clothes everywhere... so tempting!!! I saw a shoe kinda nice and comfortable, cost RM39.90... I did not buy it because I have to "CONTROL"!!!!!

I'm very upset!!! I'm very down!!!!! I want a job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


** above is the useless people's photo taken on the laming period.

如果。。。。。。

有时，我真的希望自己可以不在乎一切。可以什么都没有感觉，那么我或许可以没有脾气。当你他妈的不在乎某人，那么他的所作所谓便不是那么大件事。

就如别人所讲的，如果我不再在乎你的一切，那便代表你对我已不再重要了。

如果我真的可以如此不在乎，我想我早已离开了。

如果我可以忍受别人玩电玩而不回我的短训，我一定是痴线了。

如果我真的痴线了，别忘了送我去精神病院。

如果我真的在精神病院，要记得常来探望我。

Little Black Dress......

Due to so many dinners coming to me... I forced to buy so many dresses and skirts... these are 2 dresses I bought yesterday @ Sg Wang.. very cheap and nice.. :P Sexy as well... My mom shocked when I wear it and show her.. Hahahhahaha... It's too sexy in her eyes as the deep V is too deep and can see my small "longkang" [ I do not have any longkang lah...] Should wear PUSHUP BRA to make it bigger.

The first dress is nice and just need to sew abit on the DEEP V...coz it actually open too widely.. and will expose my lovely breast if did not sew it abit. My mom keep saying..."so sexy!! Can see whole thing liaoo..." "aiya...where got?!?!" "ha?? like that also didn't show everything?" "aiya...no lah...OK mah..." [look look in the mirror...] "aiya..looks like my breast really kinda big horrr??" "ha!!! Now only you know ha??" -__- "

The second dress looks abit conservative and not so sexy and not so nice...but when you wear it on, you looks amazingly slim!!!!! Hahahaha...and the deep V is kinda deep also..... but not so deep as the 1st one... Anyway, I like both of them... :)

Aiya...I'm broke!!! due to all wedding dinnersssss

Battle again.....

Battle going to start soon.... battle with my body fatsssssssssssssss

Ya, after lose 5KG... I'm still very greedy to lose more...and more and more...

The battle will start by today.....

Let's see how much I can lose this time...

Period : 17th Nov 2006 - 31st Dec 2006.

The new me on Year 2007!!!!!!!!!

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My new year resolution always the same... LOSE WEIGHT!
Hope that I really able to make it!!!
GANBADEH!!!!!!

Final Day......

Final day....
Feel nothing on this.. numb... forced to accept it and desperately for a new job. Sigh... my life is sux!

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Latest update on WEDDING DINNERS..

Sept06 - 1
Oct06 - 2
Nov06 - 1
Dec06 - 3
Jan06 - 1
Feb06 - 0
Mar06 - 1

Total - 9 WEDDING DINNERS

Beside these wedding dinners that will add so much fats in my body.. This week also got 2 so called dinner... Tuesday and Thursday. I must control!!! to lose 5kg is not easy!! I wanted to lose 5kg more... so I can dress to kill. Looks like it's getting more and more difficult for me to reach my target. Emmm... No worry!! I will try my best!! worse case, do not eat at all!! :P Aiyaa... I won't lah... I love to eat like hell.. won't stop eating just because want to slim down...

God, let me lose 5kg more and 5kg more and 5kg more..... Ops...too greedy. :P

Rephrase:

God, please let me lose weight very soon till my body figure is 36-24-36!!!! [SHOUT TO GOD]
[Ah!! that's much better!! Kekekeke....]

Help!!!!!!!

Arghhhhh....anyone to rescue me from.... WEDDING DINNERS?????

The game is getting more and more excited!!!! Last night I received a sms from my ex-colleague.. mentioned that she would like to invite me to her wedding dinner on December... HELP ME!!!

So, the list will be as below : -

Sept06 - 1
Oct06 - 2
Nov06 - 1
Dec06 - 2
Jan07 - 1
Feb07 - 0
Mar07 - 1

Total : 8 WEDDING DINNERSSSSS

Where am I going to have so much EXTRA MONIES to spend on - dress/ hair/ makeup/ angpao/ parking/ petrol???

I'm dying!!! I think I need to go to coffee bean and ASK for DONATION!!! At least, I still can enjoy a piece of cheesecake without take out money from my own wallet!!!! WHY????? Why everyone so rush to marry this year???? cannot marry nexy year?? next next year??? why all can't wait to marry in this year?!?!?!!?!?

Please!!! anyone, please marry me!! I want to BOMB ppl too!!!!!!

I NEED DONATION!!!!!!

我是肤浅的。。。。。。

女人总是肤浅的动物。尤其是在恋爱中的女人。

我是女人，我也是无可置疑的肤浅。我爱听甜言蜜语，当我爱人对我说我爱你，我的心可以好像融化的雪糕一样。。。甜甜软软。

平常人是无法看出我的肤浅，只有我的好朋友与我的爱人看的到。

在爱情中的我是非常没有安全感，尤其当我们之间有障碍的时候，当我们无法解决某些事情的时候。我的爱，是非常需要别人肯定的。因为我无法肯定自己。我在乎他对我的爱是否与我一样。当我感觉到一丝丝的不对劲，我便立即慌乱，想抓着任何东西，肯定自己。所以，我也被看成情绪化，坏脾气。这全因为我的“不安全” 。

我不明白为什么我会如此没有安全感。可能，我总觉得男人都一样花心，没有良心的吧。并不是因为我的前男友的背叛而造成我的不安全感，我从小便是如此。我总是想别人重视我，在乎我。我想，这是与我小时候的经历有关。

在我小的时候，我是非常胖的。当你还是六岁时，这是可爱。当你是十六岁时，这是可悲。我总是带着胖胖的身躯过我的生活，没有一个男孩真正的看过我一眼。当时的自卑感觉，可想而知。我是个非常自卑的女孩。

虽然，我依旧胖胖的，但是我的高度令我看起来并没有那么丑。我该感谢我爸妈把我生的那么高大，至少没有什么人说我胖了。只有“高大” 两个字。而且，人长大了，会打扮了，了解什么适合自己。。当然变好看了。我没有那么自卑了，但是，我非常没有安全感。我总是千方百计的想得到别人的肯定。

所以，当我真正的与我前男友交往，我内心是非常感激及幸福的。我想，我终于找到一个真正爱我的人了。可想而知，我是多么的珍惜这一份感情。但是我的不安全感，的确令他有点烦恼。但是，我也真的无法控制我的不安全感。我也想控制它，但是我总是作不到。然而，我前男友的背叛，令我更加无法肯定自己，无法令自己安心，无法令自己更有安全感。

我是烦恼的。因为我无法控制自己的胡思乱想，无法控制自己的心。我真的尝试过，但又如何？别人根本看不到。有一个朋友告诉我有关脑电波的运用，好有趣，也很有道理。我看，我也需要运用我的脑电波来平复自己的不安全感。

我的自卑感从未离开过。我非常清楚，但是我毫无办法。我不知道如何帮助自己。只有别人的肯定可以令我稍微有一点安心。但是，这份安心可以维持多久呢？我也不知道。

我看，只有非常了解及有耐心的男人可以肯定我这颗不安全感的心。

I'm Froggy......

My name is Froggy...... hug me!!!
I have a pair of greeny eyes.. ya, I have a pair of GREEN EYES...
I have a jovial smile like my lady master... very attractive and pretty... :P
I'm very lady.. I always dress in PINK....
But, I'm a very poisoned frog, look at my colour... "DO NOT MAKE ME MAD! I WILL BITE YOU!!". Do not make my lady master mad [her madness = my madness], because I'm her guardian of angel.. I will bite anyone that made her unhappy...

Remember it, or you will regret!!

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Lovely Froggy....

Pink, one of my fav colour.

This Froggy very power eh... She can do ARM BALANCING YOGA POSE... very good on it somemore... She is poison froggy... "DO NOT MAKE ME MAD! I WILL BITE!!"

She will guard me from today [05.11.2006] onwards... not to let me feel hurt or sad. Or else... she will bite you!!!!

My little cute lovely cactus.......

I have this little cute lovely cactus in my office... it was bought from Ikea together with other 5 of them. I love this one the most as it is so beautiful. I gave the others to my mom and only brought this back to office. Not that I don't like the others, but I love this the most.

As usual, I will only water it once a week... When I wanted to water it on this Monday, I saw something so cute... My cactus growing up!!! Can you see it's new leaf??? So lovely... so fresh... like a new born baby... :)

So cute........

Life is easy..... NOT!!

First, let's talk about the WEDDING 3 @ Restaurant Kam Lun Tai, Seri Petaling.
I didn't attend the dinner. Why?? Because I lost my way.... end up I went for coffee with my best friend and her hubby @ Coffee Bean, Mont Kiara with hungry stomach and frustrated mood. But it's still OK as I always laugh alots when meet with this couple.

When we are enjoying our coffee, cheese cake, chat... there come an indian lady with a small little girl who age around 7.. They are actually asking for DONATION. My best friend and myself choosed to ignored her as we been cheated, but her hubby was very kind and gave her RM5. They keep asking around the area till the staff came out and asked them go. But, they ignore the staff and keep asking around for DONATION.

So, we continue our happy happy chat... Suddenly, I saw the little indian girl holding a small box of cake from COFFEE BEAN!!!!! She get a seat, opened it up & eat!!!! Gosh!!!! DONATION gone for Coffee Bean's cake!! RM10 per one cake, ok?!??!??!?! Damn it. Immediately I told my friend's hubby that he DONATED a cake for her. Then, we thought, may be the little girl "merajuk" her mom to buy her a cake. Suprisingly!!! The MOM bought another cake!!!! Walaueh!!! What a world!!!

Really thought we all blind or what??? This is abit too much, right?? If really want to eat cake, go to Starbucks that just a bit further down lah!!!! Don't lah show it to us that you are actually con our money!!! Sux!!

That's why lah, we all are getting more and more unwilling to help those who ask for DONATION... SEE!! This is the reason!

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Life...... sux!!! My working life...... MORE SUX!!!!!! I still have to fuck off even I have proven that myself have did nothing so wrong till affecting the whole company operation. For my MD, I'm such a stupid and irritating staff. I never able to make him happy but worry and headache. Am I that worse???

Finally, here is the chance for us to get rid of each other. Yes, I'm leaving this company in 2 weeks time. Not because that I did something very wrong, not that I'm a job hopper, not because that I wanted to...... What can I do when my boss wanted me to take all the blames and be responsible on it, even I proved that it's not all my fault??

So, I'm looking for a new job desperately now. I will be jobless 2 weeks from now which I can't afford to.

Sometimes, I just wondering.... why we need to live so hard?? why we need to go through all these rubbish?? why can't I just have a steady job till I retire?? why??????? I just hate myself!!! I really do!!!!!!!

Sigh......

It's terrible feelings to back to work after 6 days rotting at home.

My eyes bag bigger than ever... the dark circle on my eyes looks like shit!!!

Sometimes, god really want to plays a fool with you. HE let you to found someone or something that you really happy with or in love with... then test or challenge you with something by making it worse. The worse thing is that you do not even own the chance to handle it but only let it torture you emotionally.

Torture emotionally, can lead to crazy... It's like having a bomb in my head, tik tik tik tik tik.... Having bad headache, blur mind.

Sigh.... I hate being torture.

Hymen......

From the research of mine about hymen… the below are what I have found…

“The hymen is a layer of tissue, just like the tissue around the opening of your vagina that partially conceals the vaginal orifice. You may or may not have one, most females do. The hymen is not an indicator of virginity; a girl is a virgin until she has been penetrated by a penis. During the early stages of fetal development there is no opening into the vagina at all. The thin layer of tissue that conceals the vagina at this time usually divides incompletely prior to birth, forming the hymen. The size and shape of this opening (or openings) varies greatly from person to person. Sometimes this formation of an opening does not occur, resulting in an imperforated hymen (it lacks the more common opening). Some females have no hymen at birth at all, since the tissue divided completely while they were still in the womb.
Many girls and teens tear or otherwise dilate their hymen while participating in sports like bicycling, horseback riding, gymnastics or inserting tampons, or while masturbating. A girl may not even know this has occurred, since there may be little or no blood or pain involved when this happens. The tissues of the vulva are generally very thin and delicate prior to puberty. The presence or absence of a hymen in no way indicates whether or not a female is a virgin. * You are a virgin until you have sexual intercourse.* Some hymens are elastic enough to permit a penis to enter without tearing, or they tear only partially, and there is NO bleeding at all. When adequately lubricated the vagina is fairly 'flexible' and will stretch without discomfort for most women. Sometimes, a woman has sex for years with no real 'tearing' at all, only stretching of the hymen and then at another time the same woman might tear from 'rough sex' or sex with a different partner with a larger penis. Remnants of the hymen are usually still present until a woman delivers a baby vaginally.”

Why I talk about hymen?? Because I noticed that some male chauvinist pigs still being very care about this not functioning layer of tissue and taking it as an indicator for purity of a girl.

As for myself, I broke my hymen on cycling when I was very young. So, does this means that I’m no longer an innocent girl just because I did not bloody bleed on my first sex encounter?? Such a bloody fucking nonsense… This is such an irritating idea created by those male chauvinist pigs.

So, the idea is, men can fuck around with no worry because they do not have the fucking hymen to prove that he is virgin or not, but ladies have to behave and only be fuck by one and only man who is her husband. Hell!!! Damn unfair!!!

Ladies!! Enjoy your life, follow your feelings. I’m not saying that we should fuck around, but at least we have to take charge of our body, our feelings, our will. Our life is not depends on someone, not control by someone. If someone do not respect us, do not need to give a fuck to them. We have our right to fight for what we really want in our life. We have the right to choose who to break our hymen. Our happiness is not depends on a fucking layer of tissue.

A man who does love you with his heart will not judge you based on a fucking piece of tissue. I strongly believe in this. Man who love you, will not care about the hymen. Unless himself is a virgin too!! I won't want a virgin boy at this age of mine, coz it will be too boring as I never a good teacher! Hahhahahaha...

Pigs!! Do you know that hymen can be re-build if we really want to do so???

Yeah!!!

Total lose - 5kg

Yeah!!!!!!! more to go!!! Let me be a slim and sexy princess!!!! :P

Paiseh......

I looks like a LOVELY, BEAUTIFUL PRINCESS!!!!

I know lah... Many people said that I always praise myself and I "tak tau malu"... :P Aiya, like that only can make ourself more happier, more confidence mah!!! :P

Anyway, I'm still a LOVELY, BEAUTIFUL PRINCESS... Kakakakkakaka...

Wedding 2 - My best friend's wedding..

My best friend's wedding [Jeannie] @ Concord Hotel, KL @ 20.10.2006.

Being her best friend, I'm busy on the day before and the day itself. Went to her house at the night before till 1am, sleep around 2am and wake up by 630am the next morning. Feeling dizzy and yawn non stop... :P But still able to make myself awake till 230am... POWERFUL! Feel like my wedding... of course, I'm not so nervous and tensed as Jeannie.

Was helping her on game preparing, bringing her belongings to the broom's house, send her relatives home, rush for make-up, do my hair and reach early to the Hotel to help on the reception counter and some arrangement. It's a very good experience for me as then I know that how troublesome it is to have a wedding dinner!! I was so exhausted after the dinner... I can't really walk properly after the dinner and ang pao counting session, not because I'm too drunk but too exhausted. I have to hug SOMEONE tight so that I able to walk to the car... Hahahhaha....

The food is normal as those chinese restaurants but good for hotels... :P And their price are reasonable too while the hotel itself is already very presentable. If there is a chance for me to have a wedding, this hotel will be in my list.

I was dressing up like a PEACOCK... not that colourful but as beautiful... Kakakakak... :P Normally I do not dress up so much for wedding dinner, but this is a very special case. Everyone shocked to look at my changes... Especially those friends who knows me long enough to know what's my actual style is... I love the changes as I turn out so beautiful and like a princess. I just love how I looks that night.. :)

That's the night, after a year of planning and so much preparation... it ended with beautiful memories. Wish that this is exactly what Jeannie's wanted for her wedding. It's a lovely night anyway... Not only that I withness the result of their love, but also the wonderful companion SOMEONE gave me.... :)

HAPPY MARRIAGE!! JEANNIE!!! FASTER GET ME A GOD-DAUGHTER!!!!


** shall post some photos of the event or myself later

My Live Crystal Stone.......

YEAH!!!! Finally I found a live crystal stone that is beautiful and cheap!!! This photo is bad! Did not show the beautiful-ness of my crystal stone.

Found this beautiful purple-ish live crystal stone @ Endah Parade on last Saturday. Just simply walk around without any motive and SOMEONE saw this crystal shop and therefore we walked in to have a look. They got many live crystal stone on the racks, beautiful and attractive. What attracted me the most is their pricing. So, I spend some time browsing on all the crystal stones.... I can't take my eyes off them... They are so beautiful.

This crystal I bought is 4.5 inches * 3.5 inches. Not so big, not so small... just the right size that I want. Ya, big means nothing... POWERFUL is the main point!!! :P Ngam Ngam Hoo is da best!!! YEAH!!! after I got this beautiful plus powerful live crystal stone, I can charge my crystal bracelets anytime as I wish!!!!! then I will be surrounded with good luck!!!!! O...Ya... It only costs me RM69.00... Cheap ehhh...

Actually I also eyed on another Yellow Live Crystal Stone... But due to insufficient funds, decided not to get that first.. Maybe next time when I got some EXTRA MONIES.

I can already feel the luck around me.... Hahahahha.... Let's get the YELLOW LIVE CRYSTAL soon!!! so that MONIES will comesss to me tooooooooo..... :P Imagine, a lovely beautiful girl with happiness and monies... WAH!!!! envy worrrrr... No worry!! I will be one of them soon! :P

Endah Parade got many crystal shops!!!!! Love it!!! Beside crystal shops, it got nothing to catch my attention. Endah Parade, my crystal paradise!!! :P Ha! beside crystal shops, they also got many many many many foot massage shops, feng shui shops.. abit weird ohh... I never see a mall with so many of shops like these.. But who cares???? It's a paradise for me as long as they got a lots of crystal shops!!! Kakakakaka.....

I shall go sleep with my luck around me.... YEAH!!!!!

Awww......

My best friend's [whose wedding is on the coming Friday] grandma passed away. Feel so sorry about that. She is very sad... and I can do nothing beside asked her do not think so much and tell her that at least her grandma is no longer suffering from illness. My best friend does not have the chance to see her grandma at all because her wedding is on this coming friday and it's not good as in Chinese beliefs.

I still can remember how we went through everything when my dad passed away. Life is so miserable for us at first. This is so sad!!! Life is short, enjoy to the max!!!

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It has been awhile eh... I'm lazy. Nothing much happened. Still going through my life beside... I can't eat my fav marble cheesecake, I can't enjoy my fav coffee, I can't taste the delicious prawns, crabz, sotongs..... :( And I can't touch on EGGS!!!!! THIS IS GOD DAMN TORTURING!!!!

I have to take my sight away from my fav cafe, away from my fav cakes.... not only that, I can't even have a thought of them...

How could I forget how you tasted??? How could I just walk into the hell without your company?? I can't leave without you.... I wanna taste you inch by inch... I wanna bite softly on your soft and delicious body.... I wanna smell you closely. I can never forget the orgasm you brought me... how can I forget this heavenly feelings?? Ohhhhh... my MARBLE CHEESECAKE... I NEED YOU DESPERATELY!!!!

Sorry?????

What can a SORRY do after you have done something to someone? You might hurt someone, or irritate someone or even killed someone. The things you have done to someone might brought someone some effect that changed his/ her life or even her thinking no matter in what aspects. Can I stab you with a sharp knife and tell you that I'M GOD DAMN SORRY FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE ON YOU??? If you are so kind that you will accept my apology after I stabbed you, please give me a knife now.

This irritating Mr. A, keep telling me that he is very very very sorry on what he did and he knows that he has made the biggest mistakes he ever had. For me, I do not give a fuck to this Mr. A on whether he feel bad or guilty on what he did. Over is over. I have my life, I love everything I'm having now. My only wish is that this irritating human will never come and irritate me again and again.

Ignorance doesn't work on him as he keep bombing my mobile phone like hell... Asking for forgiveness, friendship. Too bad that I'm a bad lady that do not have the LOVE that able to make me forget what he ever said to me.

Yes, SORRY might be the best way to make a person that you already hurted feel better because at least he/she knows that you knew that you have done something wrongly or feel guilty. But, SORRY unable to cure the scar beautifully. Human is human, we used to remember someone's bad things more than good things. Unhappiness always store in our brain instead of happiness. Since I'm a human, my brain always store unhappiness too.

Therefore, there has no way that I could give what Mr. A asked for --> FORGIVENESS. It's hard for me after what he has done & said to me.

Awww....... I hate it!!!!

Been to One Utama on last Saturday, I did shopped a little bit. Ya, only a little bit. Got one shirt for myself, another one for my mom. I also got myself a pair of heel shoe, very cheap and nice, 50% off from original price.. :P

My lovely sister back from Thailand for a week, she got me 1 handbag, 1 hairband [which I asked her to get it for me, for wedding dinner use], 2 special edition coca cola [ya, I collect coca cola...], 1 t-shirt [very nice. KILL YOU!! BLOODY BUNNY!]... :) very sweet of my sister.

One bad news, the fucking gout attacked me again. Went to the usual hospital alone again, the OPD [Out Patients Department] recommended me to go for their SPECIALIST.. I have no choice but go for the SPECIALIST.. Been waiting for around 20mins and I noticed that this SPECIALIST really high speed! Every patients will not take more than 5 minutes.

When it's my turn, I have to limp to the room, once sit down, the SPECIALIST speak cantonese to me! I blur awhile then only reply him.. his cantonese is damn good! He can speak well, speedy and understand well too. GOOD!!! He asked the nurse to check on my blood pressure and do a blood test.

Been waiting for an hour for my blood test report but still not yet ready, so the SPECIALIST told me no need to waste time for waiting and they will call me when it's ready for reading. Then he pressed on my leg and asked me feel pain or not. BLOODY HELL!!! SURE PAIN LAH!!!! Of course, being a well manners lady, I did not say that to him.. Hahhahahaa.. He gave me 2 injections on my leg and wrapped it tight.

Feel more suffer after the injections, totally can't walk, hardly limp also. Sad!!!!! Very sad!!!!!!!!!! Mom picked me up from the hospital and it getting more and more pain when I try to walk back home from the parking. When I finally make myself to the sofa, my tears can't control and dripping down like no one's business. Scared my mom and my sis.

Damn it!!!!! Really very pain!!! I can't walk!!!! I feel so USELESS!!!!!

Sign... I have to be very careful on my diet again... very sad!!!!!!!

Lack of shopping......

Happy Mid Autumn Festival!!!

It's a little bit quiet for this yr's mid autumn festival... only my mom and myself. So, instead of have dinner at home, I asked my mom not to cook and we went out for dinner. After dinner, we shop happily!!!!

It has been quite some time I really go for shopping. Too tight on financial to go shopping like crazy. No wonder I feel a little bit of bored lah!!!!! Feel kinda lifeless..... Now I found the reason!!!!!

I'm LACK OF SHOPPING!!!!!!!!

Arghhhh... I want to shopping!!!! Anyway, I did shop abit while my mom shop crazily... Hahahhaahha.... She bought few clothes... pants... braz.... LOLZ!!! Now I realised why I'm such a shopping freak!! Kakakakakak....

For myself, I got myself 3 pair of sexy panties [RM29]... Very sexy oh... lace lace and can see through abit.... WOW!!! sound seductive.. Hahahaha... And I also got myself a shirt, light blue. Mom said that I looks so CUTE with that shirt... -__-" She sound like I'm not CUTE at all without this shirt.

We really shop so freely and happily eh!! Kakakakkaa.... My mom is a devil, because she keep telling me "WAH!! THIS IS NICE!! VERY SUIT YOU LAH!!! SO CHEAP!!! BUY LAH!!!!" -__-" Sakit hati betul.. Hahahhaha.... But I'm so power!!! I able to control my hands, not to buy!! do not buy!! cannot buy!!

Sigh.... It's such a torture that you are in financial shit!!! Especially for a shopping freak like me... Is there any possibility that I will have 1 mil in my bank account suddenly?? SET ME FREE!!!!!

I want to shop! I need to shop! I'm desperately need to shop crazily!!!!!

Second Chance......

The never give up, thick face Mr. A asked me for the second chance. He said he made a mistake that he let me go. He said that he will want me back for no matter what. Hahahahahahahha... so funny!!! damn funny!!!!!

He keep saying SORRY... so what? Does it means that everything can just be forget with a click? Does this means that what he did will be disappear? Made a mistake??? So? Can you turn back the time and re-do everything?? Hahahhaha... ridiculous!!!

Nothing will change my mind once I have decided on something. Such a forgetful bastard. Hurt someone, regret, say sorry, asked for second chance??? So easy eh???

Too bad that I'm fucking nasty and stubborn.

Forgiveness???

When I’m so god damn buzy on arguing with someone, there come this long lost Mr. A asked for forgiveness. Fucking irritating bastard. Why can’t let me rest in peace??!?!?!?!? Wish I’m death and do not need to argue and being irritated.

Being such a nasty terrible lady I am, of course I did scolded his brain off [scold people is my hobby]. Then he told me that he know he did wrongly, he admitted that he is a jerk and bastard. He said he hope that I will forgive him on what he did to me, he will do whatever to get my forgiveness, even knee in front of me. Sound sweet?? So touching eh??

Too bad that I'm too fucking bad to give him my forgiveness.

Once the trust has lost, no way to gain back.

YEAH!!

5 days- lose 2 KG

yeeeeewwwww....

Please do tell me is there any straight girl like to fuck a guy in his ass?

If a guy doesn’t even know how to enjoy the art of touching… what is sex for him? It’s just the fucking action that put his dick in a girl’s pussy and pump in and out till his fucking dick shoot out his overloaded sperm. Ya, that’s all and the end.

I rather do not touch anyone than have to be so careful on my fingers.

CUT OFF ALL MY FINGERS!

Upset......

I'm not a good P.A. I can't handle a fussy boss like this.

I never be a P.A in my life... I do not know how to buy his heart as SOMEONE doing. I do not know how to jokes with him and make him happy. I do not know how to serve him so well as he is my husband.

But, I did my part as good as I can. I believe that I did my part well. As a so multitasking staff, I believe that I did my work appropriately.

However, I'm failed on being his P.A. He is too fussy for me... or maybe I'm too lausy to be his P.A. This is the job that I never want to take. I feel so lame, so useless... I feel so upset.

He didn't shout at me, but his words did hurt. I know I have to learn to be a P.A since he expected me to be one... I'm trying my best, but seems like what I did is nothing and I get more and more critism.

I'm very upset.............

Wedding Dinner #1

After I have received so many RED BOMBS... Tonight is the first one which held at Klang Executive Club. It is located just right behind Jaya Jusco, Bukit Raja. Luckily I've been to Klang for few times due to my ex's family are stay in Klang... If not, I don't think I'm smart enough to be there much more ealier than all my ex-colleagues.

Overall, the food is OK. As normal chinese wedding dinner, 8 dishes... sharksfin, fish, prawns, chicken, vege, fried rice and desserts. My ex colleague [the bride] is very very beautiful today. It's very good to gather with few of my ex-colleagues.. we chatted happily even though the bride is too bz to entertain us.

I noticed one thing... Klang people love to sing KARAOKE very very very very very muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........

For most of the wedding dinner or birthday dinner I have attended at Klang... KARAOKE is the most necessary thing to have in the event!!!!! They really love it so much and do go on stage actively!!! Non-stop KARAOKE entertainment from all the uncles/ aunties.... A little bit of torture sometimes... :P

Tonight, all the chinese oldies back to my mind.... those songs that my dad/ mom loves.... back to the live!!! Uncles/ Aunties are so excited and there even dance on stage while singing... WOW!!! I don't even have the guts to stand on stage and sing eh... Hahahaha...

UNCLES & AUNTIES @ KLANG ROCKS!!!

PS: Congratulation!! Joey!!!!!

The most NASTY person I ever see......

There are too many different people with different behaviour and attitude in this world. And I never have the luck to meet such a nasty people till this age of mine.

Nasty BRO IN LAW

No, he is not my BRO IN LAW [BIL]. This is my best friend’s BIL, such a terrible irritating nasty bastard. My best friend is getting married on coming October. And this BIL claimed that she did not INFORM him officially on their wedding date and so he is not going to attend the wedding. BIL told her dad that he doesn’t like her n her husband to be, so he is not going to attend. The whole family put the blame on my friend and want her to BEG him to attend. But still, he wanted the whole family to BEG him instead of her alone. F OFF lah!! Who you think you are? I did help my friends to get rid of BIL on the business matter. He though his MONIES are very powerful enough to control other people’s life!!! My friend even have to get his permission when want to go for holiday!! THIS IS TOO MUCH!!!! I wonder, does he need my friend to sent him a details report on how they make love? CRAZY!!!!! I think he really got some mentally problem, control freak on not only his own wife, his family but other people too, green eyes monster!!!

Ya, he can’t stand when he saw someone happy happy laughing and celebrating their happiness. Sure he will say something nasty and terrible to spoil your mood and the party. One more thing that I can’t stand is, when he is around, no one dare to speak loud because he doesn’t like noisy places! And, when he is there to have dinner, all the dishes must be cooked followed his taste!!! F OFF!

What’s his problem eh??? Why must they INFORM him when they decided to marry? When they decided on the date? Not that he going to pay for their wedding? Not that my friend’s parents not around and he need to help on this? In fact, he doesn’t give a single helping hand on this matter. What the fuck he wants people to inform him? An invitation is more than enough. BIL, DO YOU NEED A FORMAL LETTER TO INFORM YOU ON THE WEDDING DATE? Damn it!!!

My lovely best friend, being so upset and down… crying over the phone and told me these. I feel so angry on such a terrible bast**d. Too much!!! No worry, my dear…we all support you! You did nothing wrong on this!! We all understand your situation!! I’m 100% support on what you want to do!!!! [Her hubby always complained that I spoiled her wife terribly] :P

I told my mom, if whoever dare to interfere on my wedding, I will surely give no face!!! No matter who!!

Beside my parents and my sister, no one have the rights to INTERFERE on my wedding issue! Of course, the in law’s opinion has to take into consideration. But, HE is not either party!!! Terrible!!!

Arghhh… my blood is boiling!!!!

Eh????

Yerrr.... that thing not working one.... There has no result after result one... Wasting my money only!! SUXXX

So, I will go on another one.... very expensive and heard that's very god damn effective!!!

Ha... if it's really that effective and I able to reach my ideal weight...then I have to buy many new clothes worrr... then more money go out loh???? Aiyo... like this ah... then I will be more & more poor worrr.... emmmm....

Aiya... don't think so much first... Will only get the socalled god damn effective thing by next week.. and I can't wait!!!

I can't wait to see myself got such good body... :P Hahahahhahahahah...

*praying to god : I want good body!!!! slim body!!!! sexy body!!!!

Oh my gawdd......

Shit!!!!! I discovered something that I shouldn't know.

I was on leave yesterday due to the need to attend to court on my house issue. However, I saw this cover lying on the table and the used thing was wrapped with tissue paper, lying in the dusbin.

I have no idea on who used this thing in the office except XX as I found it in XX's room. I'm so shocked... Maybe XX brought his wife back to office and had their SEX IN THE OFFICE in order to bring more sparks into their normal sex life. This is the only thing I can tell myself instead of think on another possibility.

I do not want to prove on what I think is what happened actually. It is too ugly for me to know. I do not want to know anything so ugly like this.

So, the condom I found in XX's room is used by XX on his wife... They had SEX IN THE OFFICE because they feel too bored on having sex in their own room always.

Yes! This is the truth!!! YES!!! IT IS!!!!!

So lucky......

OOooOoOO.... I'm so lucky this year... Beside got a bunch of good friends that celebrate my birthday [with my fav Choc Mint Cake] for me, beside got many friends sms me and wished me happy birthday... beside that I have SOMEONE SPECIAL celebrate my birthday with me at THE SHIP... I also got few valuable gifts....

I'm so lucky..... to have so many good friends around me...

Let's see......

1. Lovely card with Lovely words inside

2. Pearl Butterfly Vibrator [aka Snow Angel]
3. Digital Camera [Sony T30-Silver]
4. LV Purse

5. Orgasmic Chocolate Mint Cake

6. Handbag

Gosh.... amazing. Never get so many gift before... Thanks for all my friends!!!! I had a very very happy and wonderful birthday this year!!!

Thank You!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

** But still I want my LIVE CRYSTAL STONE!!!

Birthday Night......

It was my birthday yesterday. Mama gave me an ANG PAO, went to work… Spend the night with SOMEONE SPECIAL @ The Ship, Jln Sultan Ismail. It was a surprise arrangement. Feel touched that he actually remember what I told him and this is the restaurant that my dad used to celebrate our birthday for us.

The Ship, the only restaurant my dad brought us there to celebrate our birthday. No matter whoever’s birthday, this is the only restaurant we headed to. Kakakakak…. Tons of memories there.

There has not much customers in THE SHIP when we arrived but still good business we can say. After we seated, I noticed that THE SHIP is getting old as me too… and immediately the memories flashing in my mind like fast forwarding movie. I still remember how excited my sister and myself were whenever my dad bringing us to have dinner at THE SHIP. We all love the SHARKSFIN MUSHROOM SOUP.

After so many years that I did not step into THE SHIP, their food still as good as what it used to be. Only the price slightly increased but it’s reasonable if you have taken into account on inflation and such a good deal for such wonderful food.

Thanks for SOMEONE SPECIAL for arranging this dinner for me. I enjoyed my night, my food and your companion!!

Muakssss…..

With so many friends around me, I can say that I’m a happy person.

Happy Birthday to me......

Happy Birthday to me....

Too many suprises today... Mr. J called me from Medan, Indonesia. Never expect his call or shall I say that I never expect that he remember my birthday. So sweet of him.

Then, Mr. Alvin and Mr. Danny both also wished me even though I did not contact them for kinda long time. Mr. Alvin even waited for me on MSN MESSENGER to wish me Happy Birthday last night. Mr. Danny send me an sms only.

Then my childhood friend also wish me through sms. And also my college friends... All those I never expected that they will remember my birthday wished me. I feel so touched... so happy... :) Ha! even my ex-colleague wished me too and my lady boss. Very happy eh.... Ya, I should be happy on my birthday.

The chocolate mint cake still lying in the fridge at home. Will slowly finish it .... kakakakaa... very yummy one...

I'm really glad that most of my friends remember my birthday... only a wish is good enough to prove that they still remember me. Aww.... I feel so HANG FOOK... coz I actually knew a bunch of good friend.

Thanks everyone!!!!! All your warm wishes fulfilled my heart with love....

Muaksssssssssssssssssssss..........

Faster wish me lah.......

Today is my birthday... I wish myself HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

My best friend arranged me a small party with the very orgasm CHOCOLATE MINT CAKE... yumm yummm... :)

In the mean time, I also received 2 BOMBS ---> WEDDING DINNER INVITATION.. Pity me... PK till the year end.

Anyway.... Wish me go slimmer, happier, prettier, richer, smarter..... :P

Result 1 ......

1st result......

08 - 11.09.2006 --> 1KG gone.

Kakakakakakakakakakakakakak......... Sound good.

Let's combat again.... Wish more to lose!!!

Let me lose more than what I wish.... But not until left my bone lah.. Anyway, I still looks BIG when I only left my bone & skin. Sigh... damn sad lah...

Anyway, it's a very good courage on 3 days for a KG... :P

礼尚往来

我们华人有个礼仪，就是礼尚往来。这是我们华人的传统美德。并不是说我们斤斤计较而是代表我们的礼貌，尊重。尤其是对老人家们，让他们感受到我们年青一辈对他们的在乎，尊重。

说真的，老人家们。。。并不会吃的多少，但是他们在乎的是心意。一份小小的礼物，便让他们开心的不得了。从小，妈妈便教我们礼尚往来的礼貌。所以，这对我来说也是蛮重要的。因为这也代表某人对我家人的在乎。

然而，我发现。。。现代的年青人已经不买这样的礼仪了。他们不管谁不开心，只要我开心便行了啊！！礼尚往来这美德，是传统也是父母们的骄傲因为他们有如此美德的子女。

这是多么可悲的现实。。。我前男友，虽然不是华校生，但是当他看到我所作的，他理解，也愿意学学华人的传统。我并不是一个非常传统老土的人，但是我想有一些华人美德真的是不可不学的，不可不传的。

礼尚往来只是其中之一个华人美德，还有千千万万的东西我们需要学习。当然，不只华人有美德，巫裔，印裔们都有他们的传统美德，他们的相处方式。我是华人，我当然要认识我前辈的礼仪道德。

华人美德不可失传，华校更不可不救。眼看多间华校面临关闭的事实，真的非常心痛。三万拨款变三千，实在是太过分了点。谁是谁非 ，只有当事人心照不宣。

Oral me......

This is a T-Shirt that I bought from Bangkok. Nice huh??? Hahahahahhaa... This shirt only cost me RM9.90, which is 99 Baht. The material is good too, very comfortable but cooling... :) GOOD DEAL!! We saw another T-Shirt which is like this..." ENJOY MY COCK" LOLZ!!! But someone do not have the guts to wear that T-Shirt, so did not buy it. I also have another T-Shirt that I got it as a sovenir for one of my good friend but he is too bz to collect it from me, think that I can SAPU it and owned it. Kakakakkaak.... This T-Shirt said..." FIND IT, FUCK IT, FORGET IT" Aawwwww.... so cool!!!! :P

I still miss Bangkok very much... Hahahahha.... Don't know why, maybe it's because my only mission over there is SHOPPING, SHOPPING and SHOPPING... That's why I'm so attracted on HER... Crazy!!

Today is a boring day, my friend who suppose to have coffee with me AIRPLANE me... I did nothing much today... A little bit of cleaning [major cleaning is done yesterday], read a bit of the unfinished novel, napped fron 1:30pm till 5:30pm... :P, then wake up, bathed, watched TV, dinner, watch TV again, read novel again, and now blogging. Waiting for another friend's call on the coffee session.

Sigh... so bored....

I want......

I want my body to looks like this...... :P

Let's try how effective the something that I've bought last night... Hahahahaha.... Actually, I already feel happy if I'm able to lose 10KG.... abit greedy? No lah.. I'm fat mah... Slimmer the better, the sexier... the prettier... But of course that I know I won't looks so perfect lah.... Try my best lohh... LOLZ!!!!

Do not......

Once I've hold you hand, I've decided to love you with everything that I can give.
Do not simply say "BREAK UP" to me no matter what, unless you 100% sure that you do not love me anymore.

Appreciate before it's too late.

******

I'm always emotional.. because I'm a person who follow my heart ---> 100%. I know this is not good, but this is the best that how I appreciate my life.

Love is not for you to KEEP deeply in your heart. Love is to show and let people feel it. That's why I'm a SOLDIER IN LOVE... I never give up in love even though I've been hurt badly for many times. I do feel disappointed on men too, but doesn't means I give up on my love.

Laugh when you feel so, cry when you wanted to. Control a little bit on your anger [I'm working on it as promised...:P ], and show people your sweetest smile.

Ha!!! sound easy eh... :P Can one lah, do it slowly... I'm sure we can make it. I found that my CONTROL on my anger got a little bit of IMPROVEMENT.. ya lah, a little bit only... Give me more time mah... I'm a dragon anyway... where got tamed dragon one... Hahahahahaha... Tamed dragon will not be a dragon loh... it's a lizard... :P

Love me with your heart.... I can feel it. :)

Birthday Gifts List......

Emmm.. Actually, nothing that I need desperately... I means on physically lah...

Last year, my Birthday Gifts List was kinda long.... Camera lah, Diamond lah... bla bla bla......

What's in my list this year?? Beside that Sony Ericsson K800i lah...... Nothing much I want beside... MONIES... The more the merrier... Hahahahaha....

I think my wish will be more on MENTALLY side for this year... eg. More ppl love me, or love me more... my family more happier and everything goes well for them... Myself to be more happy and lovely... if can, be more rich too... Hahahhahaah.... or like what my friends always wish me to do... GET MARRIED... Too difficult to achieve lah, friends.

Ya, wish me all da best in my life... Anyway, not yet my birthday... 14th lah... wait for 14th Sept then only you wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY yaaaa.... :P

Let's work out on a list, on physical side....
1. Sony Ericsson K800i
2. Live Crystal Stone
3. Compaq Notebook- Piano White [Very nice ohh...]

Eh???!?!?!?! No more lohhh.... So little compare to last year's list eh....

Oh! Maybe a new watch, don't want rubber, don't want leather... I want metal...

I think I won't buy them beside the Live Crystal Stone... :) Still looking for it, still haven't get the one I like with reasonable price.... Anyone know any places that do see cheap and nice crystal?? Preferrable if they do sell LIVE CRYSTAL STONE too... :) I need it to CHARGE my cyrstalssss..


Ya, I love crystal.

Happy Birthday......

My lovely sister's birthday.... :) May all her wishes come true lah!! Kakakakaka....

She is one year older lohhhh..... Big girl already :)

I wish her Happy Birthday and be rich soon!!! Hahahahaha....

Love you, my dear

Yohhh..... Irresistible......

Aiyo!!!! IRRESISTABLE .. Sony Ericsson K800i!!!!! I want da BLACK one.............. Awwww.... SO SEDUCTIVE!!!!

Sony Ericsson K800i- A Cyber-shot™ digital camera and a small and sophisticated feature-packed 3G mobile phone all in one. Open the lens cover and you're ready to take the picture. Bring the K800i with you and you have a 3.2 megapixel camera with autofocus, built-in xenon flash and image and video stabilizer function ready for any moment, anytime. And a 3G phone for sharing your pictures. Instantly…

Please noted….. 3.2 MEGAPIXEL CAMERA, WITH AUTOFOCUS and BUILT IN XENON FLASH!!!!!! Got Red Eye Reduction… but eh… without 2.5 digital zoom worrrrr…… eemmm… but still my saliva is drooling…….

Radio kah, Bluetooth kah, 3G kah, video stabilizer, mp3, 3D games, speaker phone lah, …. Anything you want. It cost me… RM1950 [Most highest price after my research…]

Aiyo….. I must hold!!! I must control myself!!!! Too expensive for a birthday gift for myself… or from someone... Sigh..who will get me such expensive gift lah???? No one lah… pity me.

Shall wait…. Wait will the price drop like hell… But will it happened? Sighh… Don’t think so.

Suprise!!!!!!

This suppose to be suprise is no longer a suprise. Kakakakaka....

But I do feel very touched that my best friend is actually arranging something for my coming birthday so much ealier before the day come. She accidently told me something when we chit chat-ing on MSN. I was so suprise that she does remember the cake I like a lots. Yummm... Yummm... think about it also orgasm... No, it's not the marble cheesecake I love. This is the second cake I love most... :) Can die eh!!!! Kakakakakakaka.... I tasted the cake is because of her hubby's birthday and she got him this cake. And immediately I got the wonderful food's orgasm after a bite and I told her about this. I never expect that she will put it in her heart and plan to get this wonderful orgasm giving cake for my coming birthday. Aaawwwww....Damn lovely she is!!!

Seriously, I do feel very touched that she actually plan something for me... and even going to ask most of my good friends that she know to join for the suprise small birthday celebration to celebrate that I'm one year older again. I do feel god damn happy even though I told her that no need to make it so big deal. She is always a caring and lovely lady. And she is also being very understanding that not going to have the socalled party on the exact day of my birthday. She said, "I leave it for your SOMEONE to celebrate it with you.." :)

It's always good to have some best friends around us. :) They always warm your heart when you feel cold by standing alone in this realistic world.

Thank you for everything you have done or doing or going to do for me..... Thankssss

Happy Merdeka Day......

OK, tomorrow is our NATIONAL DAY. Let's put aside those snatch cases, murdered cases, raped cases... and etc.. and wish our LOVELY MALAYSIA a very HAPPY 49th BIRTHDAY!!!!!

SINCERITY......

Today, talked about SINCERITY of men with one of my friend who still not yet married and looking for a steady bf if she able to find one.

There is a guy, who is good looking [according to her lah… I never meet him], who is attached with a GF, come out and cari makan. My friend who being lonely and flirty, had some fun with him. However, after the one and only one time of FUN HAVING NIGHT, the result is very disappointed. :P So, my advice to her is, don’t give a shit even thought he still keep sms her and told her that “I’M SO ADDICTED TO YOU!! I WANNA SEE YOU. CAN WE MEET UP?” Irritating is the only word she able to describe him. LOLZ!!!! This pretty friend of mine doesn’t wanted to see him, fuck him or even keep in touch with him anymore. According to her, he is sux on bed. Only sms her when he is horny, wanted to have affair with her but damn KIASI. Wanna F her but wanted her to go to somewhere very far... no one know HIM over there mah!!!! What I can advice my lovely friend is…. ASK HIM TO FUCK OFF.

Sigh…. As I always said, nowadays, people practice, SINGLESHIP, ONE NIGHT- SHIP, SHORT TERM-SHIP or AFFAIR-SHIP. Men do practice LONG TERM-SHIP, but they still will come out and CURI MAKAN…. I’m lucky that I still have friends who are LOYAL to their GF/ BF. If not, I will be damn damn disappointed on relationship things. But I still see a lots of these affairs happened around. Men or women.

However, how do we judge on a guy whether he is SINCERE in a relationship or not? According to our stupid POINT OF VIEW….

We do think that a SINCERE MAN…

1.will not call you only when he is damn 9 free or lonely or horny.
2.will sms you no matter where he is [after working hours lah… we know some men are very workaholic]
3.will not shy to bring you out to meet their friends or parents or family.
4.will not hesitate to tell you about their past or current.
5.will care about your feelings and listen to you.
6.will not tell you I MISS YOU, I LOVE YOU, I WANTED TO BE WITH YOU SO MUCH but
see no action.
7.will not only think on your body, like saying, I WANNA HUG YOU, I WANNA KISS YOU, I
WANNA F YOU.
8.will not talk so much but never show up.
9.will not let you feel lonely even though he stay kinda far from your home.
10.will not have FLING with you.
11.etc… etc…. etc…

Anyway, too many to stated down… Only able to remember few of them. The more you are untouchable, the more the man want to TOUCH you. What should we call this as?

There is a Kuantan guy who always tell me that he really likes me a lots, want to come KL and meet me so much, asked me to be his girl friend, asked me to move to Kuantan with him so that we can be happy living together. Crazy!! I told him off of course. He asked why I keep pushing him away, and never really treat him nice. I said, it’s because I do not see any SINCERITY in you. Talk is your expertly but it’s very clear in me that what you want from me. He said, you don’t think that I’m such a dirty old man. I said, too bad that you are exactly what I think you are. But he never give up on trying to bluff me to believe his sweet talks… Too bad, sometimes, I’m just a bit too sensitive on a guy’s sincerity. Ya, SOMETIMES only.

Why do I think that he is such a DIRTY OLD MAN?? Because from the 1st time I met him, I already saw the HAMSAP SPARKS sparking in his eyes when he look at me. I’m not pretty and I have no idea on why he being so interested on me. Nothing happened between us as I already wanna kick his balls on the first meeting. LOLZ!!!

Men…… to court a girl is very easy… you do not need to be damn rich… better lah if you are… Hahahaha…. However, sincerity in you is the only thing that a girl can sense most. SHOW US YOUR SINCERITY IN A RELATIONSHIP… not in SEXUAL-SHIP.

Can't wait...... :P

Aiya, can't wait. I received a package from S'pore. I do not have any friends from S'pore but it's a gift from S'pore!

A gift from someone SPECIAL.... Kakakakaka... Will pick it up from the post office by TOMORROW MORNING!!!

心死

最近 - 李圣杰

你最近不说话
怎麽了为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

爱我却不能给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

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如果两个人在一起，并不开心，那么为什么要浪费时间？
如果两个人都对对方多多意见，那么在一起还有什么意义？
如果双方都不珍惜对方，那么还有什么爱可言？

爱一个人，到底要如何才算是完美呢？？

曾经快乐，那便足够了吗？真的可以不在乎天长地久吗？？我非常在乎天长地久，我从来不要曾经拥有。

原来，爱，真的是需要两个人同时努力才能开花结果的。

不知所谓！！！！！

不知所谓！
不知所谓！！
不知所谓！！！
不知所谓！！！！
不知所谓！！！！！！！！！！！


有些人真的非常不知所谓。求人还要发臭脾气！它麻的不知所谓。
铥那兴。真的是不知所谓！！！！！！

帮人还要受气！！虽然不是什么大事要我帮，但是问几句会死吗？马马乎乎敷衍便行了啊。发什么臭笨蛋脾气？它麻的！！！

那么的高尚就别印免给钱的东西啊！大好心情被毁了。它麻的。

Me......

** Aiya... Very shy to put my photo... So, it's removed! :P **


Wah!!! amazing!!! so scary!!!! this is damn accurate eh!!!!! Too bad eh, this reader is in Mandarin again... :P

http://www.superfate.com.tw/22_free_8word/free8WordAns.php ---> It's all about me..

Due to the reading is very long and I'm too lazy to translate.. so, you might not have the chance to know me more... :P

Wowowowo......

OPEN YOUR EYES WIDER... not your legs... hahahhahaha...

Believe it or not??? She is a HIM..... Ya loh... this is my fav one when we went to the TRANSVESTITE SHOW in Bangkok.... Aisehh..... damn envy eh... HE is more beautiful than me... sad case eh!!! More feminine than me.... or than any female that watching HIS show... Terrible lah!!!!

HE is the most beautiful among the others transvestites. I wonder is HE fully transformed or partially?? But HE is really beautiful, damn beautiful... Look at HIS butt... Gosh, so seductive eh!!!

I really admire their braveness on changing themselves into whoever they wanted to be. It takes tons of guts to go for the operation, to face the public, to face their family and friends. I never look down at them, in fact, I admire them very very much. Most of the people will look down at them and criticise them. But, what's wrong on doing what they really wanted to do for so long time. I believe that no one want to bear this burden if they can choose, but they facing it strongly.

Most of them unable to get a steady job after they have transformed due to their unclear identity, so they forced to go into "prostitution" industry. Is this what they really want? Beside those very meterialistic female, I don't think that there has anyone wanna be fuck by someone who they hardly know and still have to fake on their reaction just to please the fucker. Yes, their identity are unclear, but they actually still have the energy, the ability to support themself if any of the employer willing to give them a chance. But, sadly to say that employers need to take good care of their company's reputation. Excuse.

Thailand's transvestites are much more lucky then those in our country. They able to get a job by doing show like this, some are working happily in restaurants, boutiques, beauty counters.... They are happy I can see.

It's glad to see that our country are more open to them nowadays. At least I can see some of them working in some well known comestic companies.... :)

Admire their guts on fighting for what they really wanted to be. Admire their stong will on going through all the hard way to get what they want in their life.

They are much more stronger than anyone of us.

Haunting......

I had bad dreamss last night.

Did not sleep well last night as I got many dreams ...... many many bad dreams... Non of them made me feel good. I do not know why I had so many bad dreams last night... Most of them made me scared, worry and depressed.

I dreamed of ghost last nights, many many ghosts in different dreams. Why I had many dreams?? Because I keep awake from my sleep for few times due to my dreams. I can hardly remember all of them, but I do remember one that really made me feel terrible.

The dream that made me feel terrible is that I dreamed of my ex's gf, the bitch who stolen my ex from me. I dreamed that the bitch is trying to steal my "current" bf. She show me her fucking irritating disgusting SURE WIN smile. I hate her so much in my dream. Such an ugly bitch!!! I was so panic in my dream. Because I don't wanna to lost my "current" bf again to this bitch. I was sad as well as it show me that how vulnerable a relationship is. If one unable to hold on themselves, there gone the relationship when there is any bitch or bastard around.

I'm so panic till I woke up from my dream. Then I fall asleep again, with unbearable sadness and frustration. I know why I feel so sad and frustrated. It's because I realised that I'm still being haunt by this bitch. I still feel so insecure about myself. I still feel that I'm not good enough for anyone. I'm still in the hurt, even though I thought that I'm already recovered.

Again, the scar been touched in my dream. Pain. But I have to be strong to face the fact that my ex, the bastard already hurted me badly and happy together with the bitch. No worry, I'm an optimistic person sometimes. :P I will feel better after this blog. Once I speak it out.. I will be much better.

Relationship, sweet yet vulnerable.

Bangkok 2006 - More Pixxx......

More pix to go ya.....

Chatuchak not only sell clothes, they do sell girl's accessories... food, drinks, snacks, interior deco, pets, furnitures, art works, designers' drawings/ works... APA APA MACAM PUN ADA LAH!!!!! Heaven... really heaven!!!!! for such a shopping freak as me. My friend's friend, who is a girl is more crazy than me. I salute her a lots!!! Hahahahahaha.... I already consider myself as freak, she is more superb shopping freak!!! KENG!!!





Look at him!!! so cute!!!!! they selling him in chatuchak... too bad that I can't have any pet in my apartment... and he is from Thai... kinda difficult to bring him home eh....

Ha, this is da boat trip we went for. There has many fishes in the river, they named it HOLY FISH. You can't catch them or kill them because they are HOLY!! They believe that this fish are given by the buddha as these fishes surrounded the temple.

Still... do not have any AGUA photos yet lah.... be patient .....

My Wedding......

Still, nothing much to do in da office as usual… I’m thinking, I should started to skip lunch. Not that I ate a lot in Bangkok, actually we did not. We only go for normal meals and that’s all. Just feel that I’m god damn fat!!! Wanna slim down!!! Remember? My next NEW YEAR RESOLUTION mahh.. hahaha.. Should have started now.. coz eh, I got a very important wedding dinner to be attended soon. My best friend’s wedding… a SHE…. :P My best guy friends not yet marry… too bad. Wondering when it is.

My wedding?? Sorry lah.. still long time to go…. My friend asked me what am I waiting for? Ha??? What am I waiting for??? Mr. Right? Good Date? Good Mood? Too many to wait lah, my friend. You thought marry is only a person’s business ha? It takes 2 to marry lah!!! What if the MAN does not want to marry you at all? Can you just ask for marry??? Aiya.. I’m a girl lah!!! You can’t urge me to propose right??? Crazy!!! Ha! marry to a VIBRATOR will be easier!!! Divorce also easy eh!!

My mom also not yet urge me to get marry eh… wondering why my friends so nerve on my wedding date. Hahahaha.. Actually ler… If I ever found the Mr. Right, of course I want to marry maahhh…. Which woman do not want to be married? Unless, she is a MILLIONNAIRE and she got a LOVER who serve her damn right. If I’m her also I won’t want to get marry lah!!! What if later that so called HUBBY hire a killer to murder me or catch me on some tiny mistake and want to divorce and share my MONEY? NO WAY!!!!

So, for a normal woman as me… I’m still fancy of Marriage lah. It’s not easy to get a Mr. Right. However, I read on an article…. It said, It’s not that hard to get a Mr. Right, It’s depends on how both of you work on the relationship. I agree with him, but seems that I hardly found someone who really can tolerate with my SCHOOL PRINCIPLE ATTITUDE. Hahahaha… I’m just holding too strong on something, too tidy, too clean, too stubborn.

The article also said, It’s destiny that you met someone in your life, but it’s the HARDWORK that needed on a long lasting relationship. I agree also lah, but how many people really put effort on working out a relationship? Nowadays, they practice SHORT TERM RELATIONSHIP/ SINGLESHIP/ ONE NITE SHIP…… OK lah, still got some people do really put effort on a relationship lah… but, how many?!?!?! Seriously, I do really fed up on putting hope on any relationship. The more hope I have, the more disappointed I am. I’m tired of it. So, I’m trying not to HOPE on anything and this is really hard for me.

Old folks said, marriage is not for fun!!! :P So, don’t play play!!!!

So, my dear friends, find me a MR. RIGHT and soon I will send my Wedding Invitation Card to your doorstep!!!! Kakakakkaka…..