HomeDec Expo 2005

Held on 23-27 Nov 2005 @ Mid Valley.

Found the ideal kitchen cabinet and built in wardrobe there. Paid deposit and committed. Quite a completed home decoration expo. They even have the POOL TABLE which my honey dying for it :P Not expensive, it only costs around RM4000. The POOL TABLE can converted into dining table, but the material of the "dining table" is kinda disappointed. Someone said, "Aiya... the table can change one mah..." Ya.. it can be change because his main concern is not the dining table anyway. :P You can also found... home type sauna, jaguzzi, mini swimming pool... fancy fancy things over there expo.

Actually, never thought of a build in wardrobe as it is always much expensive than a normal wardrobe. But, my lovely mama insisted me to get a built in wardrobe as it will looks more neat and tidy for my future room. As for her knowledge, my clothes and all my soft toys are able to fill up such a big wardrobe. :P

I admitted that only my clothes can filled it up already.... Kakakakkakaa... Like what my honey said, the number of my shoes collection is increasing.. Hahahahaha.... I'm thinking on where to keep my shoes actually. Headache.

Mentioned about headache, I'm having a it frequently. Sighh.... Doctor said it might due to my stress from work. Arghh...this it torturing and I don't like it.

Christmas.....

Christmas is just around the corner.... Can't wait for it to come.

How should I celebrate christmas this year????

- Celebrate with bunch of friends by having a small pork luck party
- Celebrate with bunch of friends by having a BBQ
- Celebrate with bunch of friends by having dinner at some restaurant
- Celebrate with bunch of friends by going for any good movie that on screen
- Celebrate with bunch of friends by going to my fav cafe
- Celebrate with bunch of friends by......
- Celebrate with my love one by going for a good dinner
- Celebrate with my love one by going for a good movie
- Celebrate with my love one by only spending some quiet time at home together
- Celebrate with my love one by going for holiday somewhere in Malaysia
- Celebrate with y love one by going for coffee
- Celebrate with my love one by......

No idea.

Such a wonderful day......

Finally, he is back to KL for a short period. It was so excited to know that we will spend some time together today. We went for HOMEDEC EXPO @ Mid Valley around 330pm. Been looking for parking for almost 30minutes, he never give up on it. So, we able to make it for the HOMEDEC EXPO. Not so crowded, but still alots of people. It's very sweet to walking around hand in hand with him :P

After the expo, we need to rush to 1U for Harry Potter. We are lucky that we didn't spend another half an hour just on looking for parking again. I made a big mistake... I got the wrong reservation number and we end up on EXORCISM OF EMILY ROSE. It's a great movie anyway. No regret on going for this movie. I promised that I will treat him for Harry Potter due to the mistake I have made.

We went for our dinner @ Good Evening Bangkok. Glad that he love the food over there. Anyway, it's a very good place to enjoy Thai Food. I heard that their chef is origin from Thailand, and most of their staffs too. I always think of Bangkok when I'm there. He is so lovely that he served me the rice before himself. Considering on my diet of seafood.. he only ordered chicken even I do not mind that he took all the seafood and I only take something that I can have. :) So caring eh.

He is so tired because he didn't has enough sleep last night, yawning all da while. But, he still spending his time with me ... I'm so touched. I though he will suggest to go home after our final try on Harry Potter's movie tickets. He didn't. I appreciate it very much. :) And of course, I had a very very great time with him. By just walking around hand in hand with him is already such a wonderful time for me :) Everything looks so beautiful even it's actually something ugly... Hahahaha... abit over describe.....

There has something funny but scary happened in da cinema while we are half way of the movie. Here it is.... when I'm drowning myself into the real story of Emily Rose being possessed by the demons, suddenly, there came a GUY with proper business attire... standing beside me... doing all kinds of weird and odd movements beside me.. Everyone are so into the movie and I noticed that no one look at the direction that I'm staring at, included him. I started to feel... eerie.... I'm very scared that time... Thinking hard with my mind on WHAT IS THIS GUY??? He acted so weird... standing so long time beside me... I'm deeply in horror, but I couldn't scream out or what, because I might scared those who watching the movie in the cineme. And I do not want to scared him too. I keep staring at him ... till he finally make his way to slip into the seating roll... and move over to his seat. GOSH!!!! I was so released.... I hide my face on his shoulder and whispered to him that I'm so scared!!!! Then only he realised that I was scared by the guy with his weird actions. I almost cry because of it. Hahahahahhahaa.... This is so funny... both of us laughed out loud for about 2 minutes in da cinema while everyone are in such a horror mood. I think they think that we are crazy, laughing at that time is really ODD! LOLZ!!!!

Both of us still laughing on the incident when we walking out of the cinema. So funny!!! Be frank, I never be so scared in my life before. Hahahahahaha.... I thought that I'm so lucky to met SOMETHING at that moment. Luckily, I got him beside me... telling me that "It's OK.." Simple words, but the effect is instantly... calmed me down. My almost dripping off tears turned into laughters.... silly!!! I'm really silly!!! It's great to have you around me.

It's almost 12midnight when we stepped out of the cinema. Home is da only destination now. And I know that he must be god damn tired... Hhahahahaha... Goodbye kiss, goodnight kiss... Do not have any... I'm too hesitate to give any even I'm so near to him that time... Hahahahahaha.... I'm shy... I'm so shy on it....

Thanks for the night. It was a great one. I did enjoy much. I'm very happy. I love your companion. I love to be hand in hand with you. I love everything we did together.

I........

MyKad......

MyKad... Malaysia's new Identity Card System that come with Chip!! Ya... sound high tech ya. :P

This system actually implemented long time ago, but no one willing to go and apply for it even though it's free as we all understand the frustration by waiting in the government departments. Kekekekek... Ya, normally we have to wait for long time in the government department even it's just for something simple. So, in order to force all the Malaysian to change the ID, our lovely government set us a deadline... 31st Dec 2005 plus a fee charged on the application after the due date.

So, you can imagine how many people will rush for the application since it's so close to year end now. Due to my impatience and laziness and my common attitude as Malaysian, I never think of go for the new ID application till yesterday. So, I went there by 9am... took my number... 3302. I have to wait for about 250 people then only my turn. Gosh... almost fainted when I saw my number.

But, I have no choice but to wait over there. I been counting on the number everytime the bell rang. I watched the people over there, walking here and there, some reading newspaper, some reading books, some playing sms, some chatting, some wondering around [just like me]. I'm stupid enough that I didn't bring any drinks, any book nor newspaper. I'm god damn bored!!!! After 2 hours of waiting, I'm sleepy. But I can't sleep over there, I'm a girl lah!!!! How can I do that in public? So, I try not to feel sleepy... I look here and there... I watch the kids running here and there...

Actually, the procedure is very fast.. It's impressive actually. We do not need much documents for it but only our current ID will do. And they also have the priviledge for elder people, this is a good one. I saw many elder people who on wheelchair came and apply for their new ID.

After 4 hours waiting, I'm done with it. I'm so exhausted and tired. I went home by around 130pm, took my lunch and sleep! So tired... the most tired thing is... WAIT & DO NOTHING. Wasted my precious time on it. But, no matter how, I still have to waste my time on the waiting as our government would like to improve the system. As a citizen, we have to support the government even though they did alots of mistakes always. Kakakakakakaka....

I'm a good citizen, I have done it before the deadline. :P

Shoe......

TAAADDAAAHHHHHH.... here it is!!! so cute eh!!! got net one ehhhh... Hahahahaha....

Busy days......

Been very busy lately. On work of course. Work like a dog just for a peanut earning for me to survive my life. Sometimes, I do wonder, why we all work so hard? We work for living? or our work working on our life? Work ---> stress ---> lifeless ---> boring life ---> ME! It's so depressed. Unsettled shits.... all given to me... Shits from centuries ago, now are all bear on my shoulder... If I'm unable to settle it, I'm useless!!! If I'm able to do so, I'm brilliant!!!! But the problem is, I unable to settle it and I do not want to be classed as an useless item in da department!

I heard that I'm confirmed as a permanent staff from the management, however, I haven't received any letter from my department head. I heard that the letter is already hand over to my department head, why she still hasn't pass it to me? What does this means? She wanted to prolong my probation period or she forgot to pass it to me? Depressing, right?

Ms. N left us finally. She feel so sad on this. She doesn't like to work in her team, but she love to hang around with us. We got her a farewell dinner and a gift. We took many silly photos. Too silly to show anyone... Hahahahahhaa... For internal viewing purpose only :P We did have our good time, we laughed alots, we did many silly things and we also ate alots and drink alots. Even though we feel sad that Ms. N is leaving us, but she is leaving for her good. The party will still come to the end no matter how great it is. So, Ms. N... ALL DA BEST!!

Very busy lately, but still able to squeezed out a little bit free time to go for coffee. I will die if I do not do so. Being so stressed... I looks tired. I do not have much spare time to spend with my friends, I'm so lost touch with my friends. When comes to weekend, normally, I will have something to do or already promised to meet up with friends. When some other friends call, I can only say SORRY to them. I feel sad and feel bad on it. I need more personal time, I want my life to be enjoyable... not being like this.

Went for HARRY POTTER & THE GOBLET OF FIRE... Interesting, but many changes on every characters. Not a bad movie anyhow. But, Dumbledore shouted too much, he used to be a calm and cool character. In this movie, he became a fierce and angry headmaster. Maybe he is same as me.. too much stress. Hahahahahaha.... Many interesting creatures. Harry Potter's life is getting more and more complicated and dangerous yet exciting too. Voldemort is back, with such an ugly face. I almost laugh out loud when I saw his real face. :P So ugly!!!!!

Before the movie, brought the boys for shopping. I bought a shoe for myself, yes, again. :P cute and lovely shoe for only RM19. Recently, I have this thought when I think of shoe. Normally, we all will feel the heat when we wearing a covered shoe, and the shoe will became smelly like a dead fish due to the sweat from our toes. And that's why I seldom wanted to wear a covered shoe. Ah!! here come the thought of mine..... to avoid this problem, we should either have shoes either come with good AIR CIRCULATION TECHNOLOGY or MADE WITH NET [with beautiful or sweet design of course]!!! So, I make up my mind to look for a shoe tat MADE BY NET [partially]... guess what? I found it today and I bought it!! Will show later. Da shoe designer can read my mind. :P It's cute. In white. Very comfortable.

I went to apply MYKAD this morning. 300 persons! Gosh... [update tomorrow. :) ]

Awww...It's late. I have to sleep. So tired after a busy day.

I'm an adult......

Normally, we are very excited when we got something new. Eg. new car, new job, new friends, new toys, new clothes, new accessories, new hair style, new looks, new house and new relationship.

Who doesn't feel excited on having something new, right?

My house is done, and we can move in anytime we wanted. But, we wanted it to be a nice and comfortable home to be live in. So, we are now planning for renovation. It's not easy. My mom fell sick after rushing here and there for the renovation quotations and ideas. And myself need to go and do research for the new furnitures for our home sweet home. I think, I do need to go for FURNITURES RESEARCH for the coming weekends. I need to do the measurements, need to check for pricing, need to do matching. I also need to be the interior designer for our home. I need more ideas.... I need more inspiration.

I have a very brief idea on how the living room to be, how the bathrooms to be and how my lovely bedroom would be. But I have no idea on where to start. Last time, when we moved into this current home of us, I do not have to worry on anything as my dad was the one who handle everything. Now, I started to understand how difficult it is to be a decision maker for a family.

Maybe, we all used to be pampered well by my dad. Beside money, nothing we need to worry when he is around. He will settled all the mess and tiny problems for our family. Arghhh... It's so wonderful that you do not have any responsibilities. But, this is what we have to go through. We can't escape from our responsibilities, we have to deal with it, handle it well. It's all because, we are adult now.

It's not fun to be an adult. We have to bear so many responsibilities, have to go through so many things that we do not like, have to be mature even we are not..... I miss my childhood, I was so silly, so innocent, so cute, so free, so lovely..... with so many adults pampered me. I love to be pampered, loved, cared.... I'm the eldest in the family, I used to have all the attention from my parents, my relatives...However, the attention I used to have faded away as I'm growing up. I need to stand by myself, take care of myself, settle problems by myself.... All by myself.

I'm an adult now, I need to do everything all by myself. You have to be independent!

Umbrella.......

This lovely and cute CHICKEN LITTLE's UMBRELLA is bought by you to me. It's not expensive. It's cute and big enough for 2 person. For chinese, it's not good to give an umbrella to someone you care of. The hidden meaning behind it due to the pronounciation of the umbrella in mandarin. "SAN" which sound same as 'seperate' in mandarin, chinese believed that by giving your love an umbrella, will lead to seperation. I never have an umbrella as a gift from anyone. But I have it this time, from you.

I put it in the car. That night, I was heading home after work. The rain was a very heavy one, I'm not feeling so well that night. All symptoms of falling sick comes to me... Feeling abit down due to the pressure from work. When I reached home, the rain still as heavy as before. I took the umbrella, opened it.. and get myself under it... walk to the staircase with it protecting me from the rain drops.

Suddenly, I feel so sweet.. because I thought of you and this umbrella. The umbrella protecting me from the heavy rain even you are so far away from me. Umbrella will not lead to seperation, but indicating that --> NO MATTER WHAT'S HAPPENED, I WILL PROTECT YOU FROM EVERYTHING. OoOOoOO.... how sweet it is. I still can walk carefully and slow in the rain, because...... the umbrella is above me, and you are in my heart.

I love this idea... protecting me from rain, sun and whatever that comes to me. Do you mind to have me in your arms? You mind to be my umbrella? Let me rest in you, let me hide in you.... let me share everything with you.

I will be your pillow... let you rest you body on me...let you rest your mind on me... share your dreams... share your thought... share your every moments... sweet or tough... I will share everything with you.

I'm your pillow.... till the day you throw me off.

The Night......

That is a wonderful night for me. For me, romantic is just spending some quiet, peaceful and happy moments with someone you love. You gave it to me. It has been 2 years that I never feel so romantic by just sitting there.

Feeling the cool breeze…watching the beautiful fountain, watching the crowd… creating our own drama’s conversation… feeling your breaths near my hair… hearing every word from you just right beside my ear… feeling your body being so near to me… I’m just like in my sweet dream, which I will choose to stay forever. It is so sweet, so wonderful.

My tears never drop from my eyes whenever I feel extremely happy. But, today….. my tears dripping off when I read on your blog. I don’t know why… My tears just dripping off without giving me any chance to say NO. I’m not sure… I have no idea…. “A GIRL” referring to who. But, by knowing that you willing to stay and plant your root in Malaysia, is already a very great news to me.

Thanks for allowing me to get closer to your heart. I appreciate it… I know it’s hard for you to do so. Thanks…. Thank you very much!!!!

Thank You......

Thank you for spending so much time with me.
Thank you for made me laugh so much.
Thank you for brighten up my days.
Thank you for the best holidays I ever have within these 2 years.

It's da most intelligent decision I have made --> Not going for horror movie. Hahahahahhaa... Spending time with you will be much more better than watching horror movie with no one to lean on. I rather buy a DVD, watch it with you when you return from overseas again.

Thanks for the romantic night. Maybe you might found it nothing, but for me, it's already very good.

I'm so nervous when you sitting so near to me...
I'm so stoned when you talking to me near my ear...
It's my biggest guts that I decided to make the move to hold on you hand.....

Muaks.... another memorable nights for me. I got so many memorable nights eh.... :P Hope there has more comes to me. More and more... Kakakaakaka.....

I will miss you.

天啊。。。。。。

我从来没有想过他会亲我。天啊。。。。。 他今天亲了我的脸。 虽然只是脸， 但是对我来说， 可是一份惊喜。 我很开心， 也很吃惊。

我不知道该如何形容我的心情。 太难形容了。

Tarot Cards......

I always wanted to go for tarot cards reading, but I do not know what should I ask, therefore, I never go for any of it. My cousin bought a set of tarot cards. It has been quite some time that he left it on my table. I never have the intention to touch on it. Last night, I unable to sleep after back from supper. I saw the tarot cards laying there, I picked it up and start reading on the booklet. And, decided to do my own tarot cards reading.

From the cards explaination, I found that the reading regarding my past and current is really really as what I was and what I am. But when come to future, I have no idea on it. Future mah..... Who knows???? Right???

From the tarot reading, it indicating that the current one is someone who match with me in terms of mentally, creative, and a stable relationship. The only obstracle between us is --> Lost, sad and seperation, might let the chance slipped away due to he is still living in his previous hurt and sadness and never step forward. The future is not what I wanted it to be. My future will be miserable, lost and don't know which to choose.

I can tell that's kinda accurate. I can confirmed on my past and my current, but not the future. I hope my future on relationship wouldn't end up as what it told me. I hope I'm able to help him to step forward, not because of myself but for his own good.

Past is past, over is over. We can never go back and we can't live in the past. No matter how hurt, how pain, how wonderful, how sweet it was, we still have to live our live. We live in current, not in our past.

Maybe not everyone as adventurous in love as me. I took 2 years to handle my hurt. I can't say that I'm doing it well, but I did my best to deal with it. If you took too long time to let go, you are too stubborn to hold on your past. Learn to let go and look forward. It is not easy. But we all have to learn it.

Let's don't look back on what has hurt you badly, look forward... Maybe there is someone waiting for you... waiting for you to reopen your heart. You will never know. I will never know who is waiting for me at the gate too. I'm looking forward to meet him... on the one sweet day.

Mini party.......

Finally, our party held on 2nd Nov 2005. This is a mini one, only 8 of us. We made sandwiches [2 different types], , fried nuggets [2 different types], fried sausages [2 different types], fruits salad, drinks and we also bought KFC [2 buckets- total 18 pcs]. Abit too many food for only 8 of us with 2 guys included. We unable to finished all the food. CH and James bring all the food home for their supper. :P

The guys sitting at the sofa, and the girls preparing the food. Sound familiar eh. But, CH did trying to help, he made the drinks and he helped me to cut the fruits. James helped on preparing sandwiches, but the sandwiches he made is too dull to eat... hahahhahaha... coz he didn't put enough butter on the bread and it's too dry to bite. We all do not want to eat the Ham sandwich he made, CH ate the most because he doesn't like to eat tuna.

It was fun, real fun. We chatted alots, took many photos. We surrounding the table while eating and we chatted and laughted alots. CH was sitting beside me while we having our dinner, he can't stop kacau me. He is very playful and fun. We were laughing too much and unable to take more food, too much air in our stomach. CH still eating while we all stop eating and James trying his best to take more food. Hahahahahaa...pity them.

We play games after dinner. The name of the game is.. HEART ATTACK. Hahahahaa... Due to my slow response.... I'm always da loser, as I not really sure how the game goes actually. The winner is allowed to ask the loser 1 question. Since I'm always the loser, I have to answer many questions. Hahahahahhaa... CH asked me what type of guys I like, Ms. N asked me about my bra size, more & more & more..... When I told them my bra zise, non of them believe!!!! What eh????? That's the real size mah!!!! They said "IMPOSSIBLE!" discussing that I should be C or D instead of B!!!! I wish so... hahahahhaahha......

Everyone also injurded abit on their hand while playing this game. It's like the card game named "SNAP" but different way of playing it. Kinda fun, but I'm too slow to respond always. :P Got once, CH lose and I'm da winner. Then I asked him back on the same question he asked me ---> What type of girl you like. He hesitate to answer eh!!!! But we all forced him to answer. Kakakakkaaka.... Ms. N asked James whether he is still a virgin or not. LOLZ!!!! James was so shy to answer and complaining that we shouldn't ask this type of question.

After this, we suggest to play some games that is more gentle, and not so violence as this. So, we played 007 and Hero. They are kiddy's games actually, but we had so much fun from the games. CH sitting beside me again, we still playing non stop. After the games, we all start feeling tired after a day of hard work and too much laughter. I feel sleepy too.

Ms. OY, CH and me sitting on the sofa and chatted abit, then some of them suggested to go into Ms. C's room and enjoy the air-con. So, we went to da room in a bunch. And the ghost stories session started. I was sitting near the empty space which facing to the door. Kinda scary as I'm alone there. I start feeling eerie.... I started to think on something else, I started to worry on whether is there anything near the empty space or not.... CH looked at me with his
"VERY SLEEPY" looks.... He is more sleepy than I was. Finally, James called the session off as we are all tired.

We left the place by 1030pm. I'm home around 11pm+. It was a great mini party.

Tired, but fun.

Looking forwards to the BBQ Gathering. I bet that will be fun too. :)

I love it......

Happy Deepavali.

I had a great day. I didn't go to any interesting places. I went to Ikea, with You.

Thanks for your company. I'm very happy even though we did not have any interesting plan. But, I love to be like this, with you. The time we spend together is not exciting but lovely. I love the peaceful feelings you gave me. Thanks for walking around with me for 6 hours.

We are so close when we are sharing a drink, reading the catalogue together. I can reach you by only turn my head to my right. What will you do if I kiss you? Give me a slap? hahahhahaha... who knows.

I can't stop my feelings. I almost can't control it..... Please do not be suprise if there comes a day, I did something that I shouldn't do.

I love the moments we spend together. Love it very much.