Please do not force yourself.......

Please do not do something that is not your wish and hurt others.

Please do something willingly and happily after you have made your decision.

Please do not show the RELUCTANT face after you hace made your decision.

Please tell if you regret on what you said/ promised.

Please do not made people looks like a fool if you do not want to do something you promised.

Please do not simply promise anything for the sake of entertain someone.

Please do not fool on others feelings.

Please ........ tell that you are not WILLINGLY to do this if you are.

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I'm fragile..... my heart too......

Again.......

The battle of lose weight has started....ya, again.... kakakakaka

OK lah...I try not to be so greedy and want a body as above.... but at least... let me have the confidence to wear bikini, singlet, sexy dress.... let me have the chance to buy clothes without even bother to try on it.... Hahahahahah......

Sighhh...really have to lose weight for the reward that SOMEONE promised me... Kakakkaakkaka... DIAMOND RING eh!!! WOW!!!! I can't wait to lose more and more weight............. Anyway, it's for my own good also lahh... for the HEALTH sake... and also the SEXINESS sake... :P

I WANNA LOSE WEIGHT!!! I WANNA LOSE WEIGHT!!! I WANNA LOSE WEIGHT!!!!!

I got TWINS.......

My SIM Lady got twins.... a boy and a girl!!! Very cute!!! They are one year old now... very notti, very active and cute.... Looks like Mommy & Daddy.. Hahahahaha... it's so cute!!!! I feel so excited to see them growing up... learn how to walk... playing their toys... very very cute!!!

Their name are Kevin & Janice.... :) Ha!! next time I blog on their photo... very cute!!!

Sorry, I can't help but feel over excited on it.

I feel lame......

I feel lame, very lame.

I have to do all these, just to make someone realised something and make decision. It's not what I suppose to do. I forced to pressured someone. It's not what I want.

I do not want to waste time and go no where.

I feel so lonely recently... desperately lonely. Been neglected. My friends all into their family life and I've been neglected. They have their own happy moments, they have their new life, they have their own topics. I found no way to fit in anymore. But this is not the reason I asked for something. That's always what I looking for in my life.

I wonder, why no one treated me seriously, why no one ever think for me. Why I have to fight so hard to get something I wanted in my life? Why I can't just sit there and enjoy the on-coming luck. Maybe my karma is really bad.

I do not have my luck in love as anyone around me. I do not have the happy relationship as anyone around me. I always have to fight badly for what I really want. I have to go through many obstracles to see a better scenery. Some people may say, "that a good thing, you are a tough and better person now." Ya... but do you know how many tears I dropped to be in this stage??

Why I have to asked instead of someone take the initiative to do something? Why? I'm not saying that my life is bad... I got a good mama, good sister, few good girl friends, few good guy friends, got a socalled good job, good superior.... what else I asked for?

If you do know me well, you should know that I'm such a sensitive and sentimental person. I can cry for a simple dialogue on the movie... you can touched my heart by just give me a small card... you can make me melt by just knowing what I like actually... I'm easy to be in love, and easy to be hurt.

I do feel lame by doing all these..... but I know I have to do it.

猜心。。。。。。

猜心的游戏， 我玩不起。

我脆弱的心， 很容易受伤害。

我看不见你的思想， 我看不见你的意愿。。。。

别再与我玩猜心游戏。。。 我快受不了。。。 我也不想浪费大家的时间了。。

没有结果的游戏 ，我不喜欢玩。。。

Sweet like Chocolate......

SOMEONE gave me a box of chocolate on Wednesday... I was kinda shocked when he hand me the chocolate. As a curious person I am, sure I did ask him why he give me chocolate... He said, because I'm sweet like chocolate. :P I know you have goose bumps all over your body now... But, It's sweet.

One day, SOMEONE and I were having our dinner in mamak and we were sharing a pack of Nasi Lemak. He was mixing the rice with the sambal, suddenly I asked... "You also like to eat Nasi Lemak by mixing the Sambal eh??" "Actually, I prefer not to mix it. But I love to eat with a lot of Sambal. I know that you like to eat it by mixing the sambal and I'm afraid that I will eat all the Sambal then you have not much sambal to mix to the rice. So, This is the best way for us to share a pack of Nasi Lemak.".

Never thought that SOMEONE is so sweet and caring.

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My FC always tell us to appreciate, to cherish, to feel how others feel, think on ourself before we talk about others.... I think, by her influence... my thinking did change abit. I don't know why... it's weird. My FC is a TAURUS... which very compatible with VIRGO...My best friend, Nicholas is a TAURUS too.. The chemistry between TAURUS & VIRGO is amazing... We think alike... :)

However, by having my FC sitting next to me everyday is not a sweet thing to have. Hahahahaha.... I'm so pressure!! Crazy soon.

Anyway, I'm currently working on my SIM2.... I got a happy family with a pregnant lady & hubby, lots of money, not working, just enjoy your life... OK lahhh.... I play cheatsss... :P But it's so much fun by having unlimited monies and no need to work but just enjoy life and do whatever you feel like doing. Even pregnancy will not be a hard job anymore.... Hahahahahaha.... Never know that SIM2 can get pregnant!!! It's amazing by seeing her stomach growing.... My lady is due soon... Wonder will it be a baby girl or boy.

INTERESTING!!!

Jealous......

Looks at the little baby in the photo... he/she is only 3 months old and yet knows it's gentle. This is my best friend's little baby in her womb and also my future god daughter/ son. It's so cute. Doctor said that he/she is only 3cm... super tiny and vulnerable. I can't wait to see him/ her soon.

I do feel jealous on my girlfriends. They found the man in their life, they no longer wondering around like me. At least they got someone or something around. They are so well settled with their own family... got hubby that love and care of them, got baby that coming into their life... a complete family coming in future. The more I sensed their joy and happiness, the more I feel sad about myself. Of course, I blessed them with my truely heart. They are my best friends. I do feel happy for them. My upset is all about myself.....

Look at myself, friends getting marry one by one. Hearing news spreading around... "A going to marry next year." "B is getting marry by the end of this year." "C is pregnant!" "D got a baby boy!!!"

What news I have to tell others?? I can only tell my friends.... "I'm fine. Not yet die. Still wondering around. Not yet got man wanna marry me."

I never have the luck to have any man that willing to spend his life with me and have baby together. Maybe he is somewhere around but I do not know where he is, as so far, no one told me that he wants to marry me and be responsible for my future happiness till I die. No one tell me that he wants to eat the tasteless dinner I cook till the day I can't cook for him anymore. No one tell me that he will loves me till I do not love him anymore. No one asked me to.... MARRY HIM.

I really feel jealous [with no bad intention] on my friends' happy life and upset on myself.

Stress.......

Stress.... very stress.....

Can you imagine how stress it is when you are actually sitting side to side with your BOSS everyday??? Not for an hour for meeting... but the whole working day.... *&^#!*#^$&

It's killing me. She able to ACCESS me so easily... She can monitor what I doing everyday... She can know whether I'm a hardworking person or lazy fella... She can hear I'm chatting online... F**K!!

Boringgggg.... working is getting more and more sian with my BOSS sitting next to me... She is a nice lady, talkative, friendly, sharing.... But still, she is my BOSS!!!

I want my freedom backkkkkkkkkkkk.................................

Never say never......

I met up with Ms. R, who been married for 4 years. Her hubby is a Mr. Good Man... quiet, looks mature, looks shy, looks responsible... and etc. She told me that he got another woman. SHOCK!! Ms. R looks difference than before, looks old and sad... Her face no longer has the SHINE & JOY. I can feel her pain. Nothing much I can do for her but only listen to her and try to comfort her and give her some positive input.

Both of them are the sample of GOOD COUPLE for us all the while.... Maybe we did not see the truth in their relationship. But, I know that she loves him very much... so much till she willing to be the WOMAN that she thought he wanted her to be [HouseWife]. She used to be a very career minded lady... who really fight for what she wanted to be. But, because of LOVE... she give it up and just wanna be his only one. However, her sacrify doesn't bring her his LOVE, ATTENTION & CARE. I can see her pain in her eyes.

I really feel sad for her after heard what she has went through and what she has did to save this relationship... I think, I couldn't bear it if it happend on me. Never say that "I will never xxx or He/ She will never xxx". We never know when a person change... when will he/ she no longer love us.. when will he/ she just walk away because of a tiny stupid reason... I don't even know when will I die. Never say never. You never know what will happen next. Maybe, a mad dog bite on me tomorrow, and I die because of some virus infection or what-so-ever.

Mr. Good Man turned to be a liar.... Sigh... It's hard to have trust in men... so do women. Who else can we put our trust on? Can we even trust ourself? Can we tell that WE WILL NEVER BETRAY YOU?? I doubt. I really doubt on it.

I do not trust you, I do not trust him, I do not trust her.... I don't even trust myself.